01-11-2015, 09:49 PM
Listening Time: 12 hours
So yesterday evening, I went and hung out with my female friend for dinner. Overall, the entire evening was great. Going into the dinner, I kept repeating myself to enjoy myself tonight and don't expect any outcome from hanging out with a girl I do like. Observing myself, I noticed I was really into the conversation we were having and even though I said what was on my mind at the given moment, I definitely did not say much and did not break any silence that happened every now and then. In fact, she did most of the talking, even breaking the silence throughout the night. I also noticed she was flipping her hair more, and smiling a lot. The only mistake I felt I made that night was our seating arrangement. She was sitting with her back towards the wall while I was sitting with my back towards the crowd in the dining area, which meant she could easily get distracted than I would. But, it seemed she was definitely zoned into me throughout the dinner. After dinner we went our separate ways, but on the drive home, I had this sense of depression come over me. I felt like she wouldn't be interested in me and that there's no way she would like me beyond the realm of friends. This continued until I got home and started listening to the subs again. I now realized that depressive-state was a resistance of my subconscious mind, trying to make me feel that I had no chance with her. However, later that night, I get a text message from her, thanking me for coming out to dinner and she enjoyed herself. I now sensed that, by her texting me later that night, there is a sign of attraction emitting from her. Like the Alpha books I've been reading lately, I need to start assuming that women I interact with are attracted to me. The signs were definitely there during dinner and how she's been acting afterwards. I'll definitely be seeing her again in the future, but improving myself will get better with not only her, but with any girl I interact with in the future.
Today I got a little testy with my mom again. Seems like she's the only one that's been pushing my buttons since starting this program. I always have this sense that my mom wants me to be something that I'm not, and wants to hold it against me either religiously or from a parent mindset. I can see why Shannon said doing AM6 while living with your parents will be tough. They're not used to dealing with child they have raised for so long and is now becoming an enlightened individual right before their eyes. I love my parents and I will always respect them, but I can no longer live the kind of life they want me to live. That's why I will probably be using AM6 more than once, because there will be some bumpy roads during this first run.
I start back in school on tomorrow. In a way, I'm looking forward to it because I'm now down to my last two semesters of college. But I'm also excited to see how much of a difference AM6 will have influenced me while in school for the next 4 months. Next week I'll be starting Stage 2. Can't wait to see how that goes.
So yesterday evening, I went and hung out with my female friend for dinner. Overall, the entire evening was great. Going into the dinner, I kept repeating myself to enjoy myself tonight and don't expect any outcome from hanging out with a girl I do like. Observing myself, I noticed I was really into the conversation we were having and even though I said what was on my mind at the given moment, I definitely did not say much and did not break any silence that happened every now and then. In fact, she did most of the talking, even breaking the silence throughout the night. I also noticed she was flipping her hair more, and smiling a lot. The only mistake I felt I made that night was our seating arrangement. She was sitting with her back towards the wall while I was sitting with my back towards the crowd in the dining area, which meant she could easily get distracted than I would. But, it seemed she was definitely zoned into me throughout the dinner. After dinner we went our separate ways, but on the drive home, I had this sense of depression come over me. I felt like she wouldn't be interested in me and that there's no way she would like me beyond the realm of friends. This continued until I got home and started listening to the subs again. I now realized that depressive-state was a resistance of my subconscious mind, trying to make me feel that I had no chance with her. However, later that night, I get a text message from her, thanking me for coming out to dinner and she enjoyed herself. I now sensed that, by her texting me later that night, there is a sign of attraction emitting from her. Like the Alpha books I've been reading lately, I need to start assuming that women I interact with are attracted to me. The signs were definitely there during dinner and how she's been acting afterwards. I'll definitely be seeing her again in the future, but improving myself will get better with not only her, but with any girl I interact with in the future.
Today I got a little testy with my mom again. Seems like she's the only one that's been pushing my buttons since starting this program. I always have this sense that my mom wants me to be something that I'm not, and wants to hold it against me either religiously or from a parent mindset. I can see why Shannon said doing AM6 while living with your parents will be tough. They're not used to dealing with child they have raised for so long and is now becoming an enlightened individual right before their eyes. I love my parents and I will always respect them, but I can no longer live the kind of life they want me to live. That's why I will probably be using AM6 more than once, because there will be some bumpy roads during this first run.
I start back in school on tomorrow. In a way, I'm looking forward to it because I'm now down to my last two semesters of college. But I'm also excited to see how much of a difference AM6 will have influenced me while in school for the next 4 months. Next week I'll be starting Stage 2. Can't wait to see how that goes.
