12-29-2014, 08:20 AM
Listening Time: 14 hours
I've now completed a full week of AM6. So far on Stage 1, I can tell that deep down within myself, there is a sense of change. I can tell there is difference between how I am now and how I was before doing AM6. Even with the fact I was trying to become Alpha before AM6, I can tell the change within me is starting to become more authentic and valuable. Some noticeable behaviors within me:
- My tolerance for nonsense and stupid behaviors is dwindling. I notice I'm quick in temper, but I still have control over my actions and reactions. I haven't had any major confrontations, but I feel like I'm ready to speak my mind if any stupid nonsense comes up.
- My interest in women is dwindling as well. Before AM6, I would try to contact certain female friends when I feel lonesome or petty. It felt desperate trying to talk to women, not because I wanted to, but because of hidden agendas. Now, I feel no need to chat up any female friends on my phone or Facebook. I'm now starting to enjoy my own company and not worry what other people are doing. I'm not sure if women notice this in me, but I did catch a few looking at me throughout the week.
- I had an interesting lesson for myself on yesterday. It all started when I had to work on my computer to fix my email account because it wasn't working. My mom come asking me why I needed to get my email account back up and running. I told her about my opportunity to intern for a local arena football team and I needed to get my email up so I can send my cousin my resume. Well, my mom wasn't too happy about this football opportunity. You see, my mom feels like I need to stop thinking about football and just forget about trying to work in that area. Well, I wasn't going to back down and I told her this was something I wanted to do and in the long run, it will pay off. Well she thought I was disrespecting her and tried to belittle me. But I didn't budge and stood up for my convictions. Soon, my mom changed subject and went about her business. That's when it hit me. This was the same type of testing men get from women all the time (or what you guys call, **** testing). The whole point of these types of tests, is to never let your frame of mind be altered by the environment, which includes women. A mistake I can easily see us guys make, is when we pass this test the first time, but then our subconscious mind make us feel guilty and a shame. And then we quiver under this pressure and then call up the girl to apologize and act beta again. The thing is, you should never apologize unless you know you did something morally wrong. When you know deep down within you that you're going to do what you want to do and don't care what others think, there's no reason to apologize to others when they don't agree with you. Now that this lesson has happened to me, I'm well prepared the next time I get these testings again in the future, especially from women.
- No interesting dreams lately, but I know for certain the sub is doing it's job. Even with my daily afformations, I can tell my life is slowly changing for the better, both internally and externally.
I've now completed a full week of AM6. So far on Stage 1, I can tell that deep down within myself, there is a sense of change. I can tell there is difference between how I am now and how I was before doing AM6. Even with the fact I was trying to become Alpha before AM6, I can tell the change within me is starting to become more authentic and valuable. Some noticeable behaviors within me:
- My tolerance for nonsense and stupid behaviors is dwindling. I notice I'm quick in temper, but I still have control over my actions and reactions. I haven't had any major confrontations, but I feel like I'm ready to speak my mind if any stupid nonsense comes up.
- My interest in women is dwindling as well. Before AM6, I would try to contact certain female friends when I feel lonesome or petty. It felt desperate trying to talk to women, not because I wanted to, but because of hidden agendas. Now, I feel no need to chat up any female friends on my phone or Facebook. I'm now starting to enjoy my own company and not worry what other people are doing. I'm not sure if women notice this in me, but I did catch a few looking at me throughout the week.
- I had an interesting lesson for myself on yesterday. It all started when I had to work on my computer to fix my email account because it wasn't working. My mom come asking me why I needed to get my email account back up and running. I told her about my opportunity to intern for a local arena football team and I needed to get my email up so I can send my cousin my resume. Well, my mom wasn't too happy about this football opportunity. You see, my mom feels like I need to stop thinking about football and just forget about trying to work in that area. Well, I wasn't going to back down and I told her this was something I wanted to do and in the long run, it will pay off. Well she thought I was disrespecting her and tried to belittle me. But I didn't budge and stood up for my convictions. Soon, my mom changed subject and went about her business. That's when it hit me. This was the same type of testing men get from women all the time (or what you guys call, **** testing). The whole point of these types of tests, is to never let your frame of mind be altered by the environment, which includes women. A mistake I can easily see us guys make, is when we pass this test the first time, but then our subconscious mind make us feel guilty and a shame. And then we quiver under this pressure and then call up the girl to apologize and act beta again. The thing is, you should never apologize unless you know you did something morally wrong. When you know deep down within you that you're going to do what you want to do and don't care what others think, there's no reason to apologize to others when they don't agree with you. Now that this lesson has happened to me, I'm well prepared the next time I get these testings again in the future, especially from women.
- No interesting dreams lately, but I know for certain the sub is doing it's job. Even with my daily afformations, I can tell my life is slowly changing for the better, both internally and externally.
