01-13-2011, 03:15 PM
I’m glad to see that you’re starting to realize things can go differently, I think the depersonalization process you’re currently experiencing is because you’ve identified with that nervous wreck persona as you call it for so long, that you’ve started to believe that that was the real you. The issues that kept those nervous wreck beliefs intact are starting to deteriorate and with that your (fake/identified) sense of self. Your new beliefs and corresponding perspectives and actions are conflicting to your former, so it has to figure out which one to keep, in the meantime your mind is in limbo.
A realization I had a couple of weeks ago was that a large part of who I thought my identity was, was nothing more than the symptoms from social anxiety, nice guy persona, no/low self esteem and depression. It’s pretty unnerving when you think about it, because you realize that you don’t a real clue to who you really are. A part is now suddenly missing… But still, it are only roles you act and play out, it are only reactions to certain situations, it doesn’t make you who you are. But then again, what really does?
Based on what I’ve read in your journal(s) so far, and how much I can identify with the things you write about. I think you can benefit greatly from the book No More Mr. Nice Guy by Robert A. Glover. I listen to the audio-book from time to time, and it’s a real helpful guide in taking control over my own life, putting myself first instead of others, and not having the need to feel guilt and compromise my own happiness when someone close to me has a bad day. It’s a nice turn than from being externally dependent.
A realization I had a couple of weeks ago was that a large part of who I thought my identity was, was nothing more than the symptoms from social anxiety, nice guy persona, no/low self esteem and depression. It’s pretty unnerving when you think about it, because you realize that you don’t a real clue to who you really are. A part is now suddenly missing… But still, it are only roles you act and play out, it are only reactions to certain situations, it doesn’t make you who you are. But then again, what really does?
Based on what I’ve read in your journal(s) so far, and how much I can identify with the things you write about. I think you can benefit greatly from the book No More Mr. Nice Guy by Robert A. Glover. I listen to the audio-book from time to time, and it’s a real helpful guide in taking control over my own life, putting myself first instead of others, and not having the need to feel guilt and compromise my own happiness when someone close to me has a bad day. It’s a nice turn than from being externally dependent.
