During the cycle I'm dealing with, which should reasonably have faded out of "noticeable" around the 15th of December 2014, I have had to deal with a lot of BS. This cycle is a theme of failure, frustration, delay, disruption. It has certainly been that. From deaths in the family to inheritances going haywire in court to finances going crazy to unexpected travel and expenses to business issues, interminable delays and restrictions working and being forced to deal with personal circumstances that drive me crazy, it's all here.
I was forced, both for myself and for the sake of someone I had to rescue, to stop using BAMM 2.0 and start using EHPRA, and then MIR when she got sick. Considering the options I had at the time, it would have left me non-functional for much longer and could have put her at risk for suicide if I had not made the choice I made. This was not lightly chosen. My original plan was to spend a week on EHPRA after my grandfather's death and go back to BAMM 2.0. The cycle made sure to emphasize the "delay" and "disruption" aspects of it's presence on that front.
This cycle is one I deal with about every 7 years. It's not something everyone has to deal with as unpleasantly as I do. Few people, in fact, do have to deal with it as roughly as it hits me. So please don't take this as me abandoning BAMM 2.0, or giving a change of instructions on BAMM. Sometimes, life kicks you down. You have to get back up and keep going, and that's exactly what I am doing.
When I have attempted to restart BAMM, it has been a joy to remember how wonderfully my friend supported me in being successful and accomplishing things. I have missed that a lot, and it frustrates me no end that I must constantly stop using it for other things - first EHPRA, and then MIR. It does nobody any good if I am not functional, whether it be because of depression, emotional turmoil or getting sick along with everyone around me.
To MIR's credit, I am the last one standing. Everyone else has gotten knocked down with a cold or a flu or even both. I have had to assist two such people, and yet I never developed a cold or flu. I was using MIR before I started dealing with them. It tried one day to get me, but it never took hold. MIR saved the day.
So when I am back to my previous schedule, it's back to BAMM. If I could have avoided this disruption, I would have. Don't think this won't cost me. And don't think it constitutes an excuse to give up on BAMM. If you want the end goal, you get back up and keep going, no matter how many times you get knocked down, or how hard.
I will see you at the finish line.
I was forced, both for myself and for the sake of someone I had to rescue, to stop using BAMM 2.0 and start using EHPRA, and then MIR when she got sick. Considering the options I had at the time, it would have left me non-functional for much longer and could have put her at risk for suicide if I had not made the choice I made. This was not lightly chosen. My original plan was to spend a week on EHPRA after my grandfather's death and go back to BAMM 2.0. The cycle made sure to emphasize the "delay" and "disruption" aspects of it's presence on that front.
This cycle is one I deal with about every 7 years. It's not something everyone has to deal with as unpleasantly as I do. Few people, in fact, do have to deal with it as roughly as it hits me. So please don't take this as me abandoning BAMM 2.0, or giving a change of instructions on BAMM. Sometimes, life kicks you down. You have to get back up and keep going, and that's exactly what I am doing.
When I have attempted to restart BAMM, it has been a joy to remember how wonderfully my friend supported me in being successful and accomplishing things. I have missed that a lot, and it frustrates me no end that I must constantly stop using it for other things - first EHPRA, and then MIR. It does nobody any good if I am not functional, whether it be because of depression, emotional turmoil or getting sick along with everyone around me.
To MIR's credit, I am the last one standing. Everyone else has gotten knocked down with a cold or a flu or even both. I have had to assist two such people, and yet I never developed a cold or flu. I was using MIR before I started dealing with them. It tried one day to get me, but it never took hold. MIR saved the day.
So when I am back to my previous schedule, it's back to BAMM. If I could have avoided this disruption, I would have. Don't think this won't cost me. And don't think it constitutes an excuse to give up on BAMM. If you want the end goal, you get back up and keep going, no matter how many times you get knocked down, or how hard.
I will see you at the finish line.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
