01-11-2011, 12:51 PM
1/11/11
So I've just been listening to alpha only at night. My dreams have gotten progressively weirder and I seem to be waking up in the middle of the night after each one of them. I'm thinking about maybe writing them down or something because I usually forget them after a couple of hours. Then again I really don't care too much for the dreams or what they mean.
I worked out today for the first time in like 2 months. I did 12 2 minute rounds on the heavy bag, felt pretty good. I was pretty energized after, but now I'm feeling the crash coming on and I'm very tired.
Overall I think I might be going through a rough patch with alpha male, either that or it's just winter has me seriously bummed out. Or it could be a combination of both. I just can't shake a feeling of not knowing where my life is going and I'm starting my next semester soon but most the classes I'm taking are just lame. I'm trying to get certified in computer forensics, but I have to take a whole bunch of prerequisites that just suck. I'm going to a community college so I'm mostly at home just chilling out. I'm only 19 so I've still got a lot of time to decide what I want to do for a living, but I've still got this sense of impending doom about my whole life.
Girls are the last thing on my mind right now, I'm just so lethargic I can't be bothered to even think about it. I usually skateboard to take my mind off things, but the weather isn't letting me do that. I'm trying not to get ahead of myself but days like this really twist my perception around and make me think the worst.
But I'll give myself a pat on the back for working out today, it's a step in the right direction.
So I've just been listening to alpha only at night. My dreams have gotten progressively weirder and I seem to be waking up in the middle of the night after each one of them. I'm thinking about maybe writing them down or something because I usually forget them after a couple of hours. Then again I really don't care too much for the dreams or what they mean.
I worked out today for the first time in like 2 months. I did 12 2 minute rounds on the heavy bag, felt pretty good. I was pretty energized after, but now I'm feeling the crash coming on and I'm very tired.
Overall I think I might be going through a rough patch with alpha male, either that or it's just winter has me seriously bummed out. Or it could be a combination of both. I just can't shake a feeling of not knowing where my life is going and I'm starting my next semester soon but most the classes I'm taking are just lame. I'm trying to get certified in computer forensics, but I have to take a whole bunch of prerequisites that just suck. I'm going to a community college so I'm mostly at home just chilling out. I'm only 19 so I've still got a lot of time to decide what I want to do for a living, but I've still got this sense of impending doom about my whole life.
Girls are the last thing on my mind right now, I'm just so lethargic I can't be bothered to even think about it. I usually skateboard to take my mind off things, but the weather isn't letting me do that. I'm trying not to get ahead of myself but days like this really twist my perception around and make me think the worst.
But I'll give myself a pat on the back for working out today, it's a step in the right direction.
