11-05-2014, 06:57 PM
(This post was last modified: 11-06-2014, 04:06 AM by Why So Serious?.)
Stage 2
Day 21
The last few days I am feeling down. At first I was worried that the sub wasn't working anymore because I didn't have that euphoric feeling I was experiencing before the last post. Where I could just feel feeling and be okay. Now I feel like I have closed off again.
Anyway I have come to the conclusion that I don't want anyone's validation anymore. It's funny because I thought I was over the validation stuff. Unfortunately I still have the tendency to look for validation in others. Figuring out how to validate myself won't be as easy as I thought in my case.
This may be the reason why all of a sudden I can't stand to be around people. Actually I loathe people right now. I'm very quick to judge and point their faults and weaknesses. This is getting to be a tad bit ridiculous because people that I used to like I have a very hard time being around them. I just see them as weak or pathetic.
Anyway it is time for me to move on for that hell hole I call a job. Just walking in I feel distant like a been there done that feeling with lots of emphases on the I have done that lets move on now. Maybe that would explain why I hate people as well.
While listening to the sub I felt something being realesed. Like I didn't have to worry about something. If only I knew what it was.
I feel like abundance is right there in my face. I can almost taste it but I know don't know how to get a hold of it.
AF I really have no clue where you are leading me now. lol.....kind of
Day 21
The last few days I am feeling down. At first I was worried that the sub wasn't working anymore because I didn't have that euphoric feeling I was experiencing before the last post. Where I could just feel feeling and be okay. Now I feel like I have closed off again.
Anyway I have come to the conclusion that I don't want anyone's validation anymore. It's funny because I thought I was over the validation stuff. Unfortunately I still have the tendency to look for validation in others. Figuring out how to validate myself won't be as easy as I thought in my case.
This may be the reason why all of a sudden I can't stand to be around people. Actually I loathe people right now. I'm very quick to judge and point their faults and weaknesses. This is getting to be a tad bit ridiculous because people that I used to like I have a very hard time being around them. I just see them as weak or pathetic.
Anyway it is time for me to move on for that hell hole I call a job. Just walking in I feel distant like a been there done that feeling with lots of emphases on the I have done that lets move on now. Maybe that would explain why I hate people as well.
While listening to the sub I felt something being realesed. Like I didn't have to worry about something. If only I knew what it was.
I feel like abundance is right there in my face. I can almost taste it but I know don't know how to get a hold of it.
AF I really have no clue where you are leading me now. lol.....kind of
