MasterEnki: From Dud to Stud - Pimp My Aura

[MasterEnki]

Day 72:

I'm starting to feel sexy,

I am getting brief looks from some women, though they are often quick glances, without much facial expression (except the couple of women who had weird / confused / WTF expressions.)


One thing I've noticed is that most women (and guys too for that matter) look half dead.

Most people seem to lack radiance.


As for internal work / inner-game:

I have a few areas to work on (in regards to women) over the next year or few,

1. Being comfortable with nudity / around nudity:

I've seen plenty of porn / pictures,

But I haven't really seen much in real-life, and I find it a little awkward / uncomfortable seeing a woman / women naked in real life.

As for being naked - I definitely feel uncomfortable about that.


2. Enjoying female company in general:

I have quite a few female acquaintances (mostly at work) and we make small talk,

But I've never actually hung out with a woman.

All my friends are guys.


3. Being comfortable with hugging / general intimacy:

I haven't had much intimacy with women (or anyone for that matter).

Women tend to avoid touching me for some reason, even when they hug everyone else around me.

I have had a few women hug me in past. But very rarely.

As for kissing,

I've never kissed anyone, and the thought of it makes me quite uncomfortable.


4. Being comfortable with sex:

I've never done anything sexual with anyone.

One thing in particular that grosses me out is 69ing / 'going down on her'.

Also, the concept of 'stank' (smells during sex) disturbs me a fair bit.