10-29-2014, 11:08 AM
Stage 3 Day 32 Round-up
For the first 12-15 days this was a very difficult and wholly unpleasant stage that gave me some of my biggest doubts about subs especially the ultrasonic, after all I couldn't hear anything yet it's how I get my main 8 hours exposure.. Was I hugely placeboing and wasting my time and hard earned cash? I even doubted the mask tracks of which I get around 3 hours exposure a day. I began to be convinced that if I couldn't hear anything neither could my subconscious!
The stage brought up all my neurosis and problems from my past. This stage was mostly dealing with my past and making me feel unhappy and disappointed, unsociable and just plain "what the f**k am I doing, these subs will never work. Shannon's probably laughing his ass off at us!"
However recently I'm feeling a lot better now and my sexy reflection has returned. If I'm not mistaken I think I look slightly younger? There's definitly some sort of sparkle about me when I see my reflection. It's kinda hard to explain. It's like seeing yourself in the best possible light all the time..there's something special about you?? Finally started to have some good dreams revolving around unobtainable women (to me anyway) shamelessly flirting with me and touching me, nothing overtly sexy yet but small steps as they say. Zen is working for me at work so I'm not stressing as much since my colleague left and I have to do his work as well (well some of it). Confidence is much higher and what people think about me has become irrelevant.
I've also had some great interactions with some cute women at work who seemed to be really enjoying our conversations. They were only work related interactions with some fun banter but it felt like I'd made new ground in my life and definitly felt sparks there.I also instinctively know what to say for the best and keep the conversation interesting. Even my favourite cute nerdy girl on reception calls me by my first name now and not just Mr <surname> anymore (yes I would bonk her in a heartbeat) She likes our interactions (flirting?) and is a bit giggly around me. I'm enjoying our innocent flirts! Feeling totally awesome!! I also have another nerdy girl I see sometimes on the way to work and although she's not particulary attractive to me I've been leading her on since August with eye contact and little smiles to the point where she follows me onto the train and plonks herself down next to me or immediately opposite giving me sneekylooks, while I act all nonchalent and innocent reading my book (and giving a bit of quick eye contact!). My boss when we were out on a visit went to touch my arm while talking then realised and pulled back (she doesn't do that!). A female visitor we had one day wanted to buy me coffee after about 5 minutes of introduction! I feel that my company is enjoyed for the first time in my life rather than feeling like a straggler and the guy that people try to get rid of or ignore if I'm around them. I'm feeling very content within myself and it's certainly helping people to warm to me
Women to me are taking on a new meaning in that whilst I enjoy their company I do so without expectation or giving the impression I'm needy so this is a great development.
I have also noticed that people don't ask me to repeat everything I say anymore. I just speak louder and more forthright.
Feeling indifferent to having women and can seem to control my sex drive..I just order myself, "yeah yeah that's enough now" This is a big development for me, but I occasionally check YouTube for some bikini action nothing heavy..just enjoy looking at fit women!
I have bought some more varieties of smellies and have started to incorporate Coconut oil into my diet. I've also bought myself a push bike to get some more leg and cardio exercise.
I have also noticed I'm going to bed around an hour or so earlier than normal. I used to stay up as long as possible because I wanted the evening to last and not have to go to work again so soon after getting in. This extra hour is making all the difference and stops me feeling tired during the next day and dozing off on the train. I don't necessarily sleep more but just catnapping is a great benefit.
Incidentally I found this post from Shannon about the weakness of SM3 to WM2
http://subliminal-talk.com/Thread-Shanno...7#pid18737
Stage 4? Bring it on
For the first 12-15 days this was a very difficult and wholly unpleasant stage that gave me some of my biggest doubts about subs especially the ultrasonic, after all I couldn't hear anything yet it's how I get my main 8 hours exposure.. Was I hugely placeboing and wasting my time and hard earned cash? I even doubted the mask tracks of which I get around 3 hours exposure a day. I began to be convinced that if I couldn't hear anything neither could my subconscious!
The stage brought up all my neurosis and problems from my past. This stage was mostly dealing with my past and making me feel unhappy and disappointed, unsociable and just plain "what the f**k am I doing, these subs will never work. Shannon's probably laughing his ass off at us!"
However recently I'm feeling a lot better now and my sexy reflection has returned. If I'm not mistaken I think I look slightly younger? There's definitly some sort of sparkle about me when I see my reflection. It's kinda hard to explain. It's like seeing yourself in the best possible light all the time..there's something special about you?? Finally started to have some good dreams revolving around unobtainable women (to me anyway) shamelessly flirting with me and touching me, nothing overtly sexy yet but small steps as they say. Zen is working for me at work so I'm not stressing as much since my colleague left and I have to do his work as well (well some of it). Confidence is much higher and what people think about me has become irrelevant.
I've also had some great interactions with some cute women at work who seemed to be really enjoying our conversations. They were only work related interactions with some fun banter but it felt like I'd made new ground in my life and definitly felt sparks there.I also instinctively know what to say for the best and keep the conversation interesting. Even my favourite cute nerdy girl on reception calls me by my first name now and not just Mr <surname> anymore (yes I would bonk her in a heartbeat) She likes our interactions (flirting?) and is a bit giggly around me. I'm enjoying our innocent flirts! Feeling totally awesome!! I also have another nerdy girl I see sometimes on the way to work and although she's not particulary attractive to me I've been leading her on since August with eye contact and little smiles to the point where she follows me onto the train and plonks herself down next to me or immediately opposite giving me sneekylooks, while I act all nonchalent and innocent reading my book (and giving a bit of quick eye contact!). My boss when we were out on a visit went to touch my arm while talking then realised and pulled back (she doesn't do that!). A female visitor we had one day wanted to buy me coffee after about 5 minutes of introduction! I feel that my company is enjoyed for the first time in my life rather than feeling like a straggler and the guy that people try to get rid of or ignore if I'm around them. I'm feeling very content within myself and it's certainly helping people to warm to me
Women to me are taking on a new meaning in that whilst I enjoy their company I do so without expectation or giving the impression I'm needy so this is a great development.
I have also noticed that people don't ask me to repeat everything I say anymore. I just speak louder and more forthright.
Feeling indifferent to having women and can seem to control my sex drive..I just order myself, "yeah yeah that's enough now" This is a big development for me, but I occasionally check YouTube for some bikini action nothing heavy..just enjoy looking at fit women!
I have bought some more varieties of smellies and have started to incorporate Coconut oil into my diet. I've also bought myself a push bike to get some more leg and cardio exercise.
I have also noticed I'm going to bed around an hour or so earlier than normal. I used to stay up as long as possible because I wanted the evening to last and not have to go to work again so soon after getting in. This extra hour is making all the difference and stops me feeling tired during the next day and dozing off on the train. I don't necessarily sleep more but just catnapping is a great benefit.
Incidentally I found this post from Shannon about the weakness of SM3 to WM2
http://subliminal-talk.com/Thread-Shanno...7#pid18737
Stage 4? Bring it on
