09-29-2014, 05:22 PM
Man this sub rocks. In the last couple of weeks I have found myself more interested in laying on my back, and now I fall asleep on my back every night. To some, this may not seem like a big deal, but it really is. Sleeping on one's back is actually a sign of confidence and I tried it a lot when I first got into self development and I could never do it. I could lay on my back for hours but I wouldn't fall asleep until I curled up on my side like a weak little baby; now I lay on my back and feel totally secure and fall asleep like that. It's great. It's very significant.
Had an extremely important meeting today involving my work. As a freelancer, going to meetings requires a lot for me. I can't rest on the reputation of some big company, or a bunch of fancy degrees on my wall - when I meet people I have to be able to (confidently) show them what I can do for them. Interestingly enough, I wasted no time this weekend worrying about the meeting and fell asleep fine last night without any concern. This morning I went to the meeting and it was great, I was completely natural and I noticed that the man I was meeting with repeatedly went out of his way to build rapport with me. It was awesome.
That's not all. I also realized that I'm really proud of who I am, what I do, and how good I am at it. I don't need any recognition at all. It, like many of the other changes, was extremely subtle. I can see how someone with little self awareness could listen to one of these programs for a long time and claim that nothing has changed. You have to pay attention to your behavior and you have to really pay attention to the observations of others. I only realized how confident I was about my meeting when someone else pointed out that I hadn't expressed any concern about it beforehand.
When I turn the sub on at night and lay down to go to sleep I sometimes find myself performing an exercise of confidence that is embedded in ASC. I do it without thinking about it and it has happened several times, so I am sure that it is the subliminal telling me what to do and me being just relaxed enough that I can witness it happening in my mind. What happens is I find these various moments in my life that were embarrassing (many of these I didn't realize consciously bothered me) and then I change the circumstances so that I said something badass instead of whatever really happened. It's clearly based on one of the instructions in the sub and it is really cool to see that it is happening on a regular basis for me.
I already had extremely limited negative self talk before starting this program as I have trained myself against it, but I feel even less urge to be negative now. I find myself waking up in the morning and thinking, "yeah, I'm the best f***ing writer in the world" and believing it sincerely. Which brings me to my next point.
My writing output has increased. I've written a number of short stories that I've already edited to submission status (and sent off) and worked on a number of other writing projects as well. It's interesting to see how a major boost in confidence is bolstering my career: I trust my ideas a lot more now and am willing to write with my own style, voice, literary devices, and motifs without that nagging feeling that I'm not doing exactly what other writers do. ASC forced me to recognize how much of a child I was about writing, I wasted so much time trying to live up to the style and voice of other writers, instead of recognizing the skill that I have developed over years of hard work. So I am unquestionably a stronger writer than I was before this program. Woohoo.
I was pretty skeptical about these programs ahead of time. Partly because I wonder how qualitatively judged they are. Partly because I have read A LOT of journals and I feel like I see mixed results. However I think that the mixed results that I read about are generally because people either do not truly pay attention to their minds and their lives, and because people jump back and forth between programs nonstop looking for a program that will turn them into a different person overnight. After about 92 days on the program I have definitely seen awesome improvements.
Also, because negative issues are important to discuss: I have had a lot of violent dreams, in the beginning I was always losing fights, getting robbed, even getting shot. Later on I became bigger, more powerful, and started carrying guns. I think that guns often represent power in the subconscious mind and the switch from being a victim to a victor is a clear change in my subconscious. I mostly mention this because I think scary dreams can be a natural part of subliminal programming when you are overcoming scary things.
A couple more nights of this (my calendar tells me Oct 2 is 96 days) and I will be done.
Had an extremely important meeting today involving my work. As a freelancer, going to meetings requires a lot for me. I can't rest on the reputation of some big company, or a bunch of fancy degrees on my wall - when I meet people I have to be able to (confidently) show them what I can do for them. Interestingly enough, I wasted no time this weekend worrying about the meeting and fell asleep fine last night without any concern. This morning I went to the meeting and it was great, I was completely natural and I noticed that the man I was meeting with repeatedly went out of his way to build rapport with me. It was awesome.
That's not all. I also realized that I'm really proud of who I am, what I do, and how good I am at it. I don't need any recognition at all. It, like many of the other changes, was extremely subtle. I can see how someone with little self awareness could listen to one of these programs for a long time and claim that nothing has changed. You have to pay attention to your behavior and you have to really pay attention to the observations of others. I only realized how confident I was about my meeting when someone else pointed out that I hadn't expressed any concern about it beforehand.
When I turn the sub on at night and lay down to go to sleep I sometimes find myself performing an exercise of confidence that is embedded in ASC. I do it without thinking about it and it has happened several times, so I am sure that it is the subliminal telling me what to do and me being just relaxed enough that I can witness it happening in my mind. What happens is I find these various moments in my life that were embarrassing (many of these I didn't realize consciously bothered me) and then I change the circumstances so that I said something badass instead of whatever really happened. It's clearly based on one of the instructions in the sub and it is really cool to see that it is happening on a regular basis for me.
I already had extremely limited negative self talk before starting this program as I have trained myself against it, but I feel even less urge to be negative now. I find myself waking up in the morning and thinking, "yeah, I'm the best f***ing writer in the world" and believing it sincerely. Which brings me to my next point.
My writing output has increased. I've written a number of short stories that I've already edited to submission status (and sent off) and worked on a number of other writing projects as well. It's interesting to see how a major boost in confidence is bolstering my career: I trust my ideas a lot more now and am willing to write with my own style, voice, literary devices, and motifs without that nagging feeling that I'm not doing exactly what other writers do. ASC forced me to recognize how much of a child I was about writing, I wasted so much time trying to live up to the style and voice of other writers, instead of recognizing the skill that I have developed over years of hard work. So I am unquestionably a stronger writer than I was before this program. Woohoo.
I was pretty skeptical about these programs ahead of time. Partly because I wonder how qualitatively judged they are. Partly because I have read A LOT of journals and I feel like I see mixed results. However I think that the mixed results that I read about are generally because people either do not truly pay attention to their minds and their lives, and because people jump back and forth between programs nonstop looking for a program that will turn them into a different person overnight. After about 92 days on the program I have definitely seen awesome improvements.
Also, because negative issues are important to discuss: I have had a lot of violent dreams, in the beginning I was always losing fights, getting robbed, even getting shot. Later on I became bigger, more powerful, and started carrying guns. I think that guns often represent power in the subconscious mind and the switch from being a victim to a victor is a clear change in my subconscious. I mostly mention this because I think scary dreams can be a natural part of subliminal programming when you are overcoming scary things.
A couple more nights of this (my calendar tells me Oct 2 is 96 days) and I will be done.
