SurferJoy's AM6 journal [COMPLETED]

[SurferJoy]

Stage 1 - Day 2

Observation and reflection:

These days I'm actively reducing issues created out of apathy.
They mostly involve painting, cleaning, repairing and fixing something.
I remember when I started this journey a couple of months ago. I was further down dealing with issue of shame and guilt.
When I woke up, I felt very bad and I needed to suppress my feeling with a large breakfast and maybe some Youtube content.

This is over now. My breakfasts are light and I mostly spend my day in silence occasionally listening to music.
In the past, I tried to achieve my goal by taking shortcut, trying to go too quick or by skipping steps. It doesnt work.

For example, I have been successful with manifesting with the Sedona Method with the statement: I allow myself to be sexually irresistible to women.

It worked but the experience wasn't that great. It was build on weak foundation.
I believe strong foundation are first to conquer and move beyond the AGFLAP from bottom to top,this is:

Shame
Guilt
Apathy
Grief
Fear
Lust
Anger
Frustration
Pride
http://releasing-and-inquiry.blogspot.be...chart.html

Once this done and we are happy with ourselves I believe we can start to really love our family,women, clients etc....
I see people doing the SM3 set and yet, they are still under the strong influence of AGFLAP . I think it going to fail or at least it is not going to be rewarding.
I tried to build castles on the sand before it never lasted long. I'm committed to take the road of proper process now. So it will take what it takes. So far things are going pretty fast and I'm really curious to see how AM6 will affect what I'm already doing.

Meditation:
Last night when I meditated I went deep into theta and I perceived something I refer as the 3D blackness or velvet blackness. It is hard to describe, it is a blackness that has depth. I also felt more expanded. This is good indication to me that I'm heading in the right direction.

I hope guys, you dont mind that my posts come with pictures? For some reason, I like pictures and it will make for a fun read when I revisit this months or years later.