09-21-2014, 08:04 PM
(This post was last modified: 09-21-2014, 08:21 PM by TangoDelta.)
It's been a over a month now that I finished AM6, and it wasn't 'till quite recently that I realized that I'm still making changes. I've realized that am always trying to do the "right thing" in any situation I encounter. It's hard to explain, and don't wanna make a long winded explanation. I feel like I'm a noble knight on a quest walking the righteous path. As dumb as that sounds, that's seriously how I feel. I'm comfortable in my own skin anywhere I go and feel totally confident. I've become the leader of my department at work. I still have a supervisor (who is a student), and then there's the full-time staff/managers, and they're always asking for my opinion on how things should be done. And I guess I do feel like I'm a leader now. Maybe I should start campaigning for 2028 presidential race lol? Once again, as dumb as that sounds, I feel like I can be a leader on that level.
And finally, a lot of times at night, before I go to bed, I reflect on my day and on my life and I'm just so damn happy. Sometimes I have trouble falling asleep because my happiness gets me worked up. I sure wish I could feel like that in the mornings though, instead of being pissed off and tired and grouchy lol.
Edit:
Something else that I think holds some significance.
I had a dream, quite vividly, that I woke up and looked out my bedroom door and saw my ex-girlfriend waiting for me on the couch. She was crying and wanted to try to get back together with me because things were going rough with her fiancé (she got engaged in real life with her new boyfriend after only 4 weeks of our breakup). And I told her "No" and shuffled her off the couch and walked her out of my house and that was that.
Maybe that means I'm finally over her? Even though it was a dream, I'm proud of myself for doing that lol. I don't deal with bullshit in my life anymore.
And finally, a lot of times at night, before I go to bed, I reflect on my day and on my life and I'm just so damn happy. Sometimes I have trouble falling asleep because my happiness gets me worked up. I sure wish I could feel like that in the mornings though, instead of being pissed off and tired and grouchy lol.
Edit:
Something else that I think holds some significance.
I had a dream, quite vividly, that I woke up and looked out my bedroom door and saw my ex-girlfriend waiting for me on the couch. She was crying and wanted to try to get back together with me because things were going rough with her fiancé (she got engaged in real life with her new boyfriend after only 4 weeks of our breakup). And I told her "No" and shuffled her off the couch and walked her out of my house and that was that.
Maybe that means I'm finally over her? Even though it was a dream, I'm proud of myself for doing that lol. I don't deal with bullshit in my life anymore.
