09-21-2014, 06:31 PM
(This post was last modified: 09-24-2014, 06:38 PM by Why So Serious?.)
Day 10
Feeling very irritable and people are starting to get my nerves with how stupid they can be. I have even caught myself doing and saying some stupid stuff.
For some odd reason I still want to destroy all the t.v's in the house.
I'm not happy with where I am at. I do feel some gratitude and am grateful that I have a place to call home however I know now that it is time to move on. I need my freedom now.
I'm dreading going to work but I know at the same time I can't complain about going. It isn't going to help and I'm making the choice to go there almost everyday. I'm looking at other people that complain everyday about there jobs but aren't doing anything to make it better. No going to college, no youtube or books to learn a new skill. Nope, just come home complain and buy lottery tickets or pray hoping that it's going to get better. It gets on your nerves after a while. I know I don't like my job but at least I'm now doing something about it.
Also I watched a little bit of Naked and Afriad today and got very emotional. Don't know if it has to do with monthly thing. I just kept thinking that anything could happen and that could be us but without being naked. lol I don't know why I was moved by that. It's just a very scary thought.
I also decided to take my health into my own hands now rather than later. I bought some protein powder to drink in the morning for meals and I got some bentonite clay. I'll see how well that works out.
I had a realization today that my emotions and thoughts are separate if that makes sense. I was felt like crying because I missed someone, and I was about to the usual question why I was feeling this way, I should't feel this way Blah blah blah. I just told myself that it was okay to feel this way and just let it be. I'm leaving out some info about what happened but it is hard for me to explain.
I really hope that I get over this irritability and frustration soon. I'm wondering what's going to happen next the more I listen to this sub.
Feeling very irritable and people are starting to get my nerves with how stupid they can be. I have even caught myself doing and saying some stupid stuff.
For some odd reason I still want to destroy all the t.v's in the house.
I'm not happy with where I am at. I do feel some gratitude and am grateful that I have a place to call home however I know now that it is time to move on. I need my freedom now.
I'm dreading going to work but I know at the same time I can't complain about going. It isn't going to help and I'm making the choice to go there almost everyday. I'm looking at other people that complain everyday about there jobs but aren't doing anything to make it better. No going to college, no youtube or books to learn a new skill. Nope, just come home complain and buy lottery tickets or pray hoping that it's going to get better. It gets on your nerves after a while. I know I don't like my job but at least I'm now doing something about it.
Also I watched a little bit of Naked and Afriad today and got very emotional. Don't know if it has to do with monthly thing. I just kept thinking that anything could happen and that could be us but without being naked. lol I don't know why I was moved by that. It's just a very scary thought.
I also decided to take my health into my own hands now rather than later. I bought some protein powder to drink in the morning for meals and I got some bentonite clay. I'll see how well that works out.
I had a realization today that my emotions and thoughts are separate if that makes sense. I was felt like crying because I missed someone, and I was about to the usual question why I was feeling this way, I should't feel this way Blah blah blah. I just told myself that it was okay to feel this way and just let it be. I'm leaving out some info about what happened but it is hard for me to explain.
I really hope that I get over this irritability and frustration soon. I'm wondering what's going to happen next the more I listen to this sub.
