09-16-2014, 05:21 AM
After last night's PSTEC session seem to be touching upon the same sort of self value and freedom from outcome which i had during my LTU experience - doing things from a point of self esteem rather than from a lack/or desire to be complete. it's still not there completely but it strikes me that this is the most powerful position to be in, to be needless and self validating - it's what i wanted to do AM6 for in the first place, just to be free.
More work needs to be done though. last nights session brought up endless images and i really felt i understood the first instances in my life where i started seeking validation and comfort externally - i want to take a number of passes on the key images which stuck out - but there are times where i just don't feel anything, thinking that i've got rid of the issue and then it comes back up stronger than ever.
The pain in my solar plexus is still partly there. i'm still needy of external love/validation - can't wait to be done and free of this.
More work needs to be done though. last nights session brought up endless images and i really felt i understood the first instances in my life where i started seeking validation and comfort externally - i want to take a number of passes on the key images which stuck out - but there are times where i just don't feel anything, thinking that i've got rid of the issue and then it comes back up stronger than ever.
The pain in my solar plexus is still partly there. i'm still needy of external love/validation - can't wait to be done and free of this.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
