09-11-2014, 01:38 AM
Ok so this marks the last day i'm going to do stage 1.
I think my journal so far shows whats happened so i won't bother with a summary. i will say what's been happening the last week or so. it's been more intense emotions, this time in what can only be described as my heart chakra. like literally have been lying around on the verge of crying over a girl i didn't even like all that much.
Obviously this isn't because of the girl and there are deeper underlying issues (I killed it with the girl and pushed her away for fear of getting hurt, she kind of hates me now because she was really into me before lol). I don't even know that the sub is creating these feelings. What i do find the sub is helping me to do is to face the pain head on and not lie to myself about it. and god the feeling of getting through it is amazing. have i said it before? probably, i can't be bothered to read up, but i look forward to more resistance, more pain and getting through it to get more wisdom and closer to a natural self.
I would love to match the guys on this forums progress on releasing. i can't seem to get the hang of any of these methods without a coach. I might look into setting up some kind of tapping mastermind in my area through meetup or something, to find people who are wililng to work through it together, alone my efforts seem untargeted.
erm what else. ah ok, yes so I'm going harder and pushing harder at the gym, at work, etc. I'm hitting up an RSD seminar/free tour this weekend - i just like their attitude to self development, to facing pain, and having a fatal devotion to your lifes purpose.
I think my journal so far shows whats happened so i won't bother with a summary. i will say what's been happening the last week or so. it's been more intense emotions, this time in what can only be described as my heart chakra. like literally have been lying around on the verge of crying over a girl i didn't even like all that much.
Obviously this isn't because of the girl and there are deeper underlying issues (I killed it with the girl and pushed her away for fear of getting hurt, she kind of hates me now because she was really into me before lol). I don't even know that the sub is creating these feelings. What i do find the sub is helping me to do is to face the pain head on and not lie to myself about it. and god the feeling of getting through it is amazing. have i said it before? probably, i can't be bothered to read up, but i look forward to more resistance, more pain and getting through it to get more wisdom and closer to a natural self.
I would love to match the guys on this forums progress on releasing. i can't seem to get the hang of any of these methods without a coach. I might look into setting up some kind of tapping mastermind in my area through meetup or something, to find people who are wililng to work through it together, alone my efforts seem untargeted.
erm what else. ah ok, yes so I'm going harder and pushing harder at the gym, at work, etc. I'm hitting up an RSD seminar/free tour this weekend - i just like their attitude to self development, to facing pain, and having a fatal devotion to your lifes purpose.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
