08-17-2014, 03:51 AM
I keep having recurring dreams about weak people in my life, and screwing them over - they attack me because they're so upset then I beat them and then somehow in my dream everyone starts crying.
Some very weird shit.
Also choosing to not give a fk is paying off, I guess supported by the subs it makes things easier. Someone who I used to find intimidating because they were so successful has zero impact on me now, I found out the other day they really didn't like me and it didn't have any effect. I got, for all intents and purposes, dumped by a girl, she just seemed to lose interest - at first it really hurt but then it just disappeared.
Just feeling super lazy, I think this might have something to do with alcohol , I get really weak and fuzzy headed after drinking, and it lasts for over a week each time, I need to commit to stopping since it lowers the quality of my life considerably - but I'm the moment it helps being social so much that it will be hard work being social without.
Some very weird shit.
Also choosing to not give a fk is paying off, I guess supported by the subs it makes things easier. Someone who I used to find intimidating because they were so successful has zero impact on me now, I found out the other day they really didn't like me and it didn't have any effect. I got, for all intents and purposes, dumped by a girl, she just seemed to lose interest - at first it really hurt but then it just disappeared.
Just feeling super lazy, I think this might have something to do with alcohol , I get really weak and fuzzy headed after drinking, and it lasts for over a week each time, I need to commit to stopping since it lowers the quality of my life considerably - but I'm the moment it helps being social so much that it will be hard work being social without.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
