Delta's AM6 Journal

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And I certainly had some ups and downs...mostly downs. The first stage I felt good and happy, but that may have been placebo, I don't know. Then starting in the second stage things started getting pretty bad. I felt pretty darn bad and depressed and wanted to quit and do something else. This occurred through the third stage too. I honestly don't want to go back and read the earlier entries of my journal because I'm so embarrassed by the things I said I can't even believe that was me who said them. But I think in stage 4 things started getting better and by stage 5 I was feeling pretty good. But it wasn't until this tail end of stage 6 where I'm really feeling like I'm a whole new person. Maybe I'm a late bloomer and things just take a while to get going/rolling/growing on/with me. But yeah, I can honestly say that there were some really hard months in there. If it happens to you just make sure you don't give up. Put you're head down and just plow through it.

I'm guessing the downs have something to do with the OGSF, I'm doing EPRHA and honestly I feel a lot of the similar things as you and many others feel in the first 2-3 stages. Hopefully EPRHA does soften the lows for me with AM6 so they won't be that harsh, since with EPRHA I sometimes feel hopeless, like there's no way out. I guess AM has so many extra things in it that it helps you break free, I have yet to see that with EPRHA.

As with you I feel a bit embarrassed of my earlier lows and in the future I probably won't want to read them except if for only seeing the process.
I think the stages 4,5,6 are similar to everybody, so it's not that you're a late bloomer, it's just how the program seems works.