12-07-2010, 07:21 PM
It has been a while since I’ve lasted posted here. For starters, I’ve gone back to my previous setup, which are Overcome Social Anxiety and Love and Appreciate Yourself and have dropped Alpha Male 2010 for the time being (so that the title thread would correspond to me again, har har nah j/k) and have been using them for more than a week. I still don’t have a clue what has happened to me, but I can safely say that I’m more accepting of that it has happened, and that I just have to start over again and move on. I’ve refrained from posting here since my mood and perspective changed pretty much every single day, and it would have given a very schizophrenic/manic impression had I continued posting... I also think that the subliminals didn’t have much influence in those days, after adding OSA to AM it did give me a small boost at the start but it eventually just winded down. It certainly didn’t help that at a certain point I lost faith in a lot of things and didn’t knew what to believe anymore, this including subliminals.
Even though I had more sort of "good" days than bad days I could notice a decline in my personal well-being which pretty much came to its lowest point about a week and a half ago. I also wasn’t aware that I had a constant pressure of anxiety, once I was able to identify this, things started to change because I had something to focus on for immediate improvement. My anxiety did cause me to be a hermit pretty much all the time during this duration, but all things considered I am and have been a hermit for a large part of my life, so who cares? It’ll only take time before I’ll be able to be comfortable with myself again, especially if I continue using these subliminals, and don't get too emotionally involved in arguments...
I haven’t noticed much specific change from OSA and LAY, but since the last five days the mood swings are gone for about 95%, which is already an impressive feat to me. Since starting OSA and LAY I definitely saw a an acute positive change in my self-image, and the only negativity that still stems from it is in the form of having a couple of negative / self-deprecating thoughts (instead of a lot) that pop up throughout the day, and waking up with a sense of negativity which resides after ~30 minutes. I’m still very susceptible to feeling anxiety, but overall I have my sense of calmness has returned, which also means that I’m able to think rational again, and have a better ongoing narrative going, instead of black/white emotional negative thought and being enveloped by it. I'm currently not able to assess my social anxiety, because I haven't left the house for little over a week, but I'm noticing that I'm thinking more lightly about it (instead of pressuring the hell out of me, and thoughts of gloom and doom of what could happen...), which in effect is motivating me more to do more things to get out.
I’m currently focused on becoming selfish and having mature boundaries, which are pretty much the most important building blocks of my mindset, along with using certain aspects of spirituality to help me accept things as they are instead of judging / labeling them. Except for focusing and practicing on this, I’m also strengthening it by reading and listening to a lot of (audio and e)books (‘No More Mr. Nice Guy’, ‘A New Approach to Emotional Health and Clear Thinking’ and ‘Stop Giving A **** - The Ultimate Goal’, to name a few) which have helped me before to get into this frame of mind.
Even though I already posted about this before, I can definitely tell that the Insomnia Aid isn’t a great Insomnia Aid for me, but I’m much more centered and clear-headed the next day when I use it. Also tried a few other brainwave entrainment programs from other companies, but they sort of fell flat, especially in comparison with Shannon’s.
Even though I had more sort of "good" days than bad days I could notice a decline in my personal well-being which pretty much came to its lowest point about a week and a half ago. I also wasn’t aware that I had a constant pressure of anxiety, once I was able to identify this, things started to change because I had something to focus on for immediate improvement. My anxiety did cause me to be a hermit pretty much all the time during this duration, but all things considered I am and have been a hermit for a large part of my life, so who cares? It’ll only take time before I’ll be able to be comfortable with myself again, especially if I continue using these subliminals, and don't get too emotionally involved in arguments...
I haven’t noticed much specific change from OSA and LAY, but since the last five days the mood swings are gone for about 95%, which is already an impressive feat to me. Since starting OSA and LAY I definitely saw a an acute positive change in my self-image, and the only negativity that still stems from it is in the form of having a couple of negative / self-deprecating thoughts (instead of a lot) that pop up throughout the day, and waking up with a sense of negativity which resides after ~30 minutes. I’m still very susceptible to feeling anxiety, but overall I have my sense of calmness has returned, which also means that I’m able to think rational again, and have a better ongoing narrative going, instead of black/white emotional negative thought and being enveloped by it. I'm currently not able to assess my social anxiety, because I haven't left the house for little over a week, but I'm noticing that I'm thinking more lightly about it (instead of pressuring the hell out of me, and thoughts of gloom and doom of what could happen...), which in effect is motivating me more to do more things to get out.
I’m currently focused on becoming selfish and having mature boundaries, which are pretty much the most important building blocks of my mindset, along with using certain aspects of spirituality to help me accept things as they are instead of judging / labeling them. Except for focusing and practicing on this, I’m also strengthening it by reading and listening to a lot of (audio and e)books (‘No More Mr. Nice Guy’, ‘A New Approach to Emotional Health and Clear Thinking’ and ‘Stop Giving A **** - The Ultimate Goal’, to name a few) which have helped me before to get into this frame of mind.
Even though I already posted about this before, I can definitely tell that the Insomnia Aid isn’t a great Insomnia Aid for me, but I’m much more centered and clear-headed the next day when I use it. Also tried a few other brainwave entrainment programs from other companies, but they sort of fell flat, especially in comparison with Shannon’s.
