12-03-2010, 11:38 AM
22 days into stage 4.I have been busy lately doing a lot.I got what seems to be a total lack of procrastination and refusing to put things off for later.
I handle stressful situations better now,those things register as being harder than usual but I just do the best I can.
There are more stares sometimes,not all the time but it's OK.I'm not attached to it.A funny one was when I was at the hall in the university getting something out of my bag and I saw with my peripheral vision some women walked by turned her head and looked at me while she walked.
Another thing that started this week is when seeing a woman I find attractive
I start talking to her.I wanted to.Today I asked another one I see sometimes to go out,she said she had a boyfriend I didn't do those things before.Never been good with women.
The funny thing is I was compelled to go and ask her out.I couldn't bring myself to leave the place until I did it.I didn't care she said no.
There something with eye contact I noticed.Sometimes during a conversation I don't talk and stop and look at a woman and it affects them.Also had it two days ago with a random one I saw.It's like I feel a different energy in my body and almost around me at these moments.
I also pause in conversations with other people and don't answer straight away if I need to think for a second.Almost like I let them wait.
A lot of insecurities and fears went away.I feel better,calmer,healthier.
I get more done,learning and trying new things.I also hide my personality a lot less,not caring if others will disapprove.
Less effected by emotions I can put them aside and focus on what I want to do.I use the release technique a lot more during the last two weeks.
So this could be also related to this.
I felt like I was babysitting one of my friends this week.Not sure if it's related.
I handle stressful situations better now,those things register as being harder than usual but I just do the best I can.
There are more stares sometimes,not all the time but it's OK.I'm not attached to it.A funny one was when I was at the hall in the university getting something out of my bag and I saw with my peripheral vision some women walked by turned her head and looked at me while she walked.
Another thing that started this week is when seeing a woman I find attractive
I start talking to her.I wanted to.Today I asked another one I see sometimes to go out,she said she had a boyfriend I didn't do those things before.Never been good with women.
The funny thing is I was compelled to go and ask her out.I couldn't bring myself to leave the place until I did it.I didn't care she said no.
There something with eye contact I noticed.Sometimes during a conversation I don't talk and stop and look at a woman and it affects them.Also had it two days ago with a random one I saw.It's like I feel a different energy in my body and almost around me at these moments.
I also pause in conversations with other people and don't answer straight away if I need to think for a second.Almost like I let them wait.
A lot of insecurities and fears went away.I feel better,calmer,healthier.
I get more done,learning and trying new things.I also hide my personality a lot less,not caring if others will disapprove.
Less effected by emotions I can put them aside and focus on what I want to do.I use the release technique a lot more during the last two weeks.
So this could be also related to this.
I felt like I was babysitting one of my friends this week.Not sure if it's related.
