Jennie's Journal with Emotional Pain Relief and Healing Aid

[jennielee]

Ok, so today ive been doing some reflection. I have done all i can for my business for the moment, so its time to focus on me. I was poking around through the forums and found information that it takes 32 days to make/change a habit. So ive decided to put some focus on my personal growth. Im going to set goals and find habits i can begin training myself on. I may or may not post that progress here, it all depends. I feel like the weights are starting to lift off of me. I feel strongly that at the moment i need to focus on submission. I need to submit to life so to speak and accept the things i cant change. I need to be realistic in whats changeable. I need to also focus on the area of trust, and submitting out of trust to be able to accept some things too. I need to realize that i dont have to control everything, sometimes its ok to let go and accept it.

I also feel strongly that i need to build habits that will focus me towards my goals of being successful and a better mother. I am going to start a paper journal that will help me continue to focus and reflect. I promised my friend that i would do the things i needed to, and one day look foward to handing him my journal so he can see the journey in keeping my promise.

I am also feeling more motivated to change for the right reasons. I am not focusing on doing them just to win him back, but rather out of love. Love for my daughter who deserves the very best, love for him and all he has done, and most important love for myself. I plan to be a better person no matter what it takes.

This sub has finally started taking some major chunks out of things. I am healing and growing in ways i never expected.

I have looked over my behavior patterns and habits and discovered the biggest and first one that needs to change is submission.

To my best friend thank you for all you have done. I hope i will make you proud.