My Change Journal

[Artemis]

I can't imagine what another few months of the sub will do. Its gonna be good, you've obviously come a long way already.

I also started NG a week ago. Im finishing up AM5 in a week and i'm Alpha enough, so since NG makes you more "feminine" it balances me out nicely. Not only because of AM, but because I bodybuild and have a very short haircut. So my presence is a little intimidating and it "softens" my look up a bit. Since i started NG I feel less judgmental and focus less on the physical traits of girls when i look at them, and just feel their feminine energy as i'm looking at them and just sort of smiling. Loving the moment.
Just yesterday my boss, his brother, and I. Were on lunch break and we stopped by at Raleys. And
there was this very cute girl. For the sake of description i would say a 7.5/10. 8.5 on a date without a doubt. Just stunning. As we are walking in she is distracted by some old folks talking to her, she was helping them with something. I walk by and just look at her beauty and the whole time im smiling. When she meets my gaze we share a 3 second moment where she stops talking and looses her composure. I doubt anyone has ever looked at her that way. I certainly never looked at anyone this way before NG. As we are eating i notice she was looking at me from afar. Only then do i realize that this girl was flattered at the way i looked at her. And surely, a few minutes later she is standing near the exit with some of her coworkers on a break i presume. And completely acting sexy and looking my way frequently. I was seconds away from walking up to her and the boss man takes a call and we have to leave. Unfortunately i never got a chance to talk to her. Mostly because i was so impressed at the power of a 3 second look, that i was thrown off a bit and thought i would surely screw up my chance somehow. What a stupid move. I need to get rid of this stupid fu8king belief, its stopping my life dead in its tracks. I'm going to start doing affirmations on not caring if i screw things up or not. But this AM thing is really something. And NG complements the Alpha Male look perfectly.

I like the video called "One" by Mpgamer55 on YT
And i love the natural sexuality of Palmy in this one. Shes always amazing but this is a nice song as well. And the sounds she makes at the end are pleasing too. lol

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SqhN9LdIpr0

Nice story IronSmooth. Are you really sure using AM5 with NG would be the best thing to do though? I know NG softens some of the parts that AM is supposed to change and I could see the two conflicting. Shannon himself has also commented that he doesn't believe they should be used together, but tell me how it all goes, I really want to use AM6 after I finish my run with LTU.

Also, I have the exact same problem with the belief that I would somehow mess up an approach. Last year at the end of summer and the beginning of the new school year I had done quite a lot of self-development and when I actually got to school and started getting checked out by the ladies I went completely into panic mode. Like some part of my subconscious couldn't believe that what I had been hoping for in the last few weeks had actually come through. There was even one particular girl that had been giving me ridiculously obvious signs that she was interested and it just spooked me lol. I became completely weird and even angry about it.

For solving that problem I've heard of using affirmations but they just never seem to work for me. They give me a conscious boost, but it always seems like a placebo. When I actually try and lean on that belief it always breaks and scares the crap out of me. For stuff like that I would definitely using tapping to release the negative memories and feelings and then try and replace them with positive ones.

I'm hoping similar things begin to happen to me soon with all this Natural Grounding I've been doing. I've done at least an hour and a half today alone

I went to go look in the mirror and I can see that my features are definitely softer. Like I've physically changed after doing Natural Grounding. It's really amazing.