03-31-2014, 09:13 AM
(03-30-2014, 06:48 AM)AfzalG Wrote: Hey Sarge, hmm don´t remember that i mentioned that i have a girlfriend because i don´t have, but i am in contact with my ex-girlfriend. Hmm in 50% of the cases it´s easy to see them again, i just have to call her. But i refuse to have contact with some girls, when they keep seeing their ex boyfriends or something like that or dont come to a date in time. I then think i am better than that, i dont care how good looking she is and how great the sex with her is, if she thinks she can play with me i show here that she is nothing for me, i know my value and i deserve respect. There are mistakes no women is worth to forgive them.
About the ten women in my Life. 8 of them were my social ciricle (mostyl from school, or family events or friends of my sister which i have known for years) and 2 of them i met on the internet. They were all relationships, some only 3 weeks long and all were extremely destructive, i can say that i never was happy in love in my life i only got the negative side, thats why i now dont believe in true love anymore, so its possible that i have some negative beliefs about woman or hate and anger like Rayhon mentioned. Don´t had any succes with approaching women in real life, ok perhaps once. How i was before, i would say i was some kind of pseudo-alpha and a beta deep inside me, a needy jerk who thought he knows enough about this game to play it. I thought i was a man but i only was a big child. The better i become the more i see how much i have to learn and how far i am from my definite goal.
I would say that at this point sm pushed my pick up skills up to 300%, and made me much mature.
Hmm, I would say in my head sex has just taken over everything I think about it 24h a day and even in my dreams lol. =D But still the other areas in my life are better than ever, my health is great, my body is in perfect shape, i work out on a regular basis, at my work I dont have any problems anymore, I get great grades in school although i cant learn at all, but it seem that my brain abilities has improved a lot even if i feel tired, I dont know why but i need less discipline and energy and get more results in everything i do, maybe its the positive attraction this sub brings. Although I feel empty like i described, its more like i feel purified from everything i dont need in my head, no unnessecary thoughts or emotions, i laugh more than ever since i am using sm and even if i feel depressed i am funny and make jokes. It´s some kind of samhadi state i dont get too happy and don´t get too down. Cant describe it better. I hope it helps. What wonders me is that i got all these results with stage 5 and not earlier, I mean not that obvious.
Really fascinated by your results! Could you tell me the age range of these women? I really would like to know and how many bitches have you banged since starting sm?
