Stage 1 day 8
After the weekend of being secluded and working, i had noticed a pattern, every girl i briefly spoke to was weirdly nice with me. After being exposed all weekend and not sleeping much sunday night because of the anticipation of a stressful appointment on Monday, I was beyond tired, By the end of lectures at 3 I just kind of slowly headed home. Was too tired too even acknowledge my surroundings. So i got in to my room, and debated about sleeping, but i had a ton of work to do. I started playing the sub, and within minutes i was energetic and super motivated, i sat and knocked out all the work i had to do that day in record time, even had time to make flashcards. Maybe its me, maybe its the sub, but in general my motivation towards the course im studying has definitely improved. Even today in classes i noticed a huge difference in my confidence with the subject.
So back to yesterday,,, and most of the weekend actually, I've had this drive to do as much as possible because I desperately want to go out, which is something i haven't had much time for the last few months. So as a student, the first week has improved my performance in that role, made me a bit more confident towards the language im studying, its good.
Although these are good results that the programme may or may not be focusing on, amongst all good things come the bad things. And in my case, its my own stupidity, maybe anxiousness or fear on some level.
This is what happened. Last night, I bumped into one of the sporty girls for my dorm, she was being over friendly but we were having good chat, I started joking about how she should hire a masseuse after such a busy day, she replied "i could do with a back rub and maybe a full body massage, to help me relax, if you know what i mean, Do you wanna come up for a bit?"
Oh my god, mini titan! you have our attention, what did you do? You went up there and had a wicked time right?
Nooooo!, i didn't it was so direct i thought it was a joke, and i was busy, she gave me another 3 chances to go with her before the conversation ended. I literally was too busy, It wasn't until after i had returned to my room and finished my work, that i realised what i just turned down/missed out on.
Maybe it was fear of some kind, I did feel turned on during the conversation but I dunno, it just seemed nothing major to walk away from, I had too much stuff to do, obviously that night in bed, i regretted that decision. Previously, if this had happened, i would be stuck in my head questioning what to say and do, there was nothing like that, weird no nerves at all. I guess changes are being made pretty rapidly with this sub, however resistance doesn't seem to be too obvious in any way, I guess 5g really is too advanced to resist.
After the weekend of being secluded and working, i had noticed a pattern, every girl i briefly spoke to was weirdly nice with me. After being exposed all weekend and not sleeping much sunday night because of the anticipation of a stressful appointment on Monday, I was beyond tired, By the end of lectures at 3 I just kind of slowly headed home. Was too tired too even acknowledge my surroundings. So i got in to my room, and debated about sleeping, but i had a ton of work to do. I started playing the sub, and within minutes i was energetic and super motivated, i sat and knocked out all the work i had to do that day in record time, even had time to make flashcards. Maybe its me, maybe its the sub, but in general my motivation towards the course im studying has definitely improved. Even today in classes i noticed a huge difference in my confidence with the subject.
So back to yesterday,,, and most of the weekend actually, I've had this drive to do as much as possible because I desperately want to go out, which is something i haven't had much time for the last few months. So as a student, the first week has improved my performance in that role, made me a bit more confident towards the language im studying, its good.
Although these are good results that the programme may or may not be focusing on, amongst all good things come the bad things. And in my case, its my own stupidity, maybe anxiousness or fear on some level.
This is what happened. Last night, I bumped into one of the sporty girls for my dorm, she was being over friendly but we were having good chat, I started joking about how she should hire a masseuse after such a busy day, she replied "i could do with a back rub and maybe a full body massage, to help me relax, if you know what i mean, Do you wanna come up for a bit?"
Oh my god, mini titan! you have our attention, what did you do? You went up there and had a wicked time right?
Nooooo!, i didn't it was so direct i thought it was a joke, and i was busy, she gave me another 3 chances to go with her before the conversation ended. I literally was too busy, It wasn't until after i had returned to my room and finished my work, that i realised what i just turned down/missed out on.
Maybe it was fear of some kind, I did feel turned on during the conversation but I dunno, it just seemed nothing major to walk away from, I had too much stuff to do, obviously that night in bed, i regretted that decision. Previously, if this had happened, i would be stuck in my head questioning what to say and do, there was nothing like that, weird no nerves at all. I guess changes are being made pretty rapidly with this sub, however resistance doesn't seem to be too obvious in any way, I guess 5g really is too advanced to resist.
