Shannon's BAMM 2.0 Journal

[Shannon]

Couple days ago, in the shower, I was suddenly aware that I needed a haircut. And somehow, I decided I was tired of cutting my hair every week or two, so I grabbed my headblade and shaved my head.

Now this is interesting for a couple of reasons. First, when I did this almost a year ago, for the first time, I wasn't really comfortable with it and I decided to let my hair grow back in. Now... I just own it, and don't give a rat's what other people think, because it's my choice, my reality and I am happy with it. Interestingly, I note that everyone else simply follows my lead and accepts it. In fact I have had guys stop me from talking about something else to comment on how they like it, how well done it is, and how they wish they had the courage to do it also.

Second, after 24 hours, it became very apparent that if I want to keep this chrome dome going, I now have to shave my head every day... wha? I did this to not have to cut my hair, but it seems that I prefer it now and I have indeed been shaving my head every day or every other day.

This is very interesting. I have also noted zero negative response from others. Everyone reads my body language and just accepts me as I am based on that, and since my body language is 100% comfortable and natural, they appear to all be presuming that this simply is as it should be. Which actually fits perfectly with how I feel about it, because I just stepped into it and took hold.

I wonder if perhaps this stage of BAMM is having this effect on me, since it was almost a year ago that I last shaved my head...

I am also noticing that I am continuing to mature, and stepping up into more and more responsibility - and more and more comfort with having more responsibility. There is still some procrastination, but when I look at how this has been going, the procrastination is getting less and less, and I am slowly and surely coming out ahead, coming into my own, and all this feels more and more normal and natural now.