02-14-2014, 04:55 PM
5 days into stage 1
5 days of weirdness.
-my state keeps flipping, the sub is extremely tiring so in the mornings I'm pretty much a zombie, although it only takes even the slightest bit of contact from an attractive girl and I'm suddenly energized (like I've just chugged a crate of red bull)
- a lot more females are now staring at me, smiling at me, saying hey as they walk buy 'but saying it in the way that they already know me, like we're good friends'
- if there is a girl I know around, even some of the girls from my dorms that I've barely spoke to, they go out of there way sometimes even doing a double take if they walk past and then approaching me to ask how my day is. Pretty cool, but they do this in the manner that implies we are friends, even though half these girls never even used to say hi, whenever I bumped into them around the dorms. It's weird, but the attention is fun.
- something weird keeps happening in conversation, if I'm talking to an attractive girl I can feel myself burning up, and can sense my cheeks going red, the same thing is happening to them, if they aren't wearing too much make up you can see their faces glowing. My friend actually asked why every second or so girl I speak to mine and her faces start to go bright red. So it's noticeable, but I'm not nervous, or feeling horny or anything, it's just a rise in body temperature.
- in Starbucks today, the girl who made my coffee called out my name and before I could collect it she pulled it back and added stuff to it, then could barely speak a word to me, when I asked her what she had forgotten, her face went really red and she looked like a deer in headlights lol. I could only think she was acting the way I used to act when I was a horny teen at my first job, and every hot girl I served made me think of sex, and thus embarrassing and awkward transactions. Probably not what she went through but brought back the memories lol
- dreams, mind is in SuperDrive, every night I'm waking up repeatedly and my dreams are extremely vivid, although the subject of the dreams are rather random, this morning I was convinced I hadn't even slept because the dreams were no so realistic.
- my room is tidy, for the first time since the day I moved, it's nice lol, I didn't even realise I was tidying, I was walking around with the sub playing practicing exercises in my textbook then after like an hour noticed my room was almost spotless. An awesome perk, it's nice to see the floor again lol
I know there's a few things I've forgotten, so much seems to be changing, but I'm noticing very little resistance, normally I'm used to facing a lot of resistance earliest on in the subs
5 days of weirdness.
-my state keeps flipping, the sub is extremely tiring so in the mornings I'm pretty much a zombie, although it only takes even the slightest bit of contact from an attractive girl and I'm suddenly energized (like I've just chugged a crate of red bull)
- a lot more females are now staring at me, smiling at me, saying hey as they walk buy 'but saying it in the way that they already know me, like we're good friends'
- if there is a girl I know around, even some of the girls from my dorms that I've barely spoke to, they go out of there way sometimes even doing a double take if they walk past and then approaching me to ask how my day is. Pretty cool, but they do this in the manner that implies we are friends, even though half these girls never even used to say hi, whenever I bumped into them around the dorms. It's weird, but the attention is fun.
- something weird keeps happening in conversation, if I'm talking to an attractive girl I can feel myself burning up, and can sense my cheeks going red, the same thing is happening to them, if they aren't wearing too much make up you can see their faces glowing. My friend actually asked why every second or so girl I speak to mine and her faces start to go bright red. So it's noticeable, but I'm not nervous, or feeling horny or anything, it's just a rise in body temperature.
- in Starbucks today, the girl who made my coffee called out my name and before I could collect it she pulled it back and added stuff to it, then could barely speak a word to me, when I asked her what she had forgotten, her face went really red and she looked like a deer in headlights lol. I could only think she was acting the way I used to act when I was a horny teen at my first job, and every hot girl I served made me think of sex, and thus embarrassing and awkward transactions. Probably not what she went through but brought back the memories lol
- dreams, mind is in SuperDrive, every night I'm waking up repeatedly and my dreams are extremely vivid, although the subject of the dreams are rather random, this morning I was convinced I hadn't even slept because the dreams were no so realistic.
- my room is tidy, for the first time since the day I moved, it's nice lol, I didn't even realise I was tidying, I was walking around with the sub playing practicing exercises in my textbook then after like an hour noticed my room was almost spotless. An awesome perk, it's nice to see the floor again lol
I know there's a few things I've forgotten, so much seems to be changing, but I'm noticing very little resistance, normally I'm used to facing a lot of resistance earliest on in the subs
