02-03-2014, 09:43 AM
(02-02-2014, 06:22 PM)TangoDelta Wrote: Well since this game is pretty much a blowout (Super Bowl) I'll write this down then do some homework.
I had an absolutely shocking event occur today, concerning the ex-girlfriend. She is trying to find a different place to live so she can move out. I asked why and told her that's not necessary. She would pay rent for two places now. She said she hates seeing my face and hearing my voice and that I broke her heart. She says her new boyfriend (who lives out of state) makes her so happy and is such a perfect guy and is exactly what she wants. But all the nice things he says and does for her feels fake. (These are all things that she said) If she couldn't get someone like me to love her, why would someone so much better love her. She's now an emotional mess. It hurts her to see me happy and going about my life. She doesn't wanna see me miserable, but I still shouldn't be this happy.
Now I had no idea she felt like this still. I seriously thought she had moved on a very long time ago. Yes, I was not the greatest boyfriend. All she wanted from me was to show her that I loved her. From the very beginning my mom was right; "It's not what you do, it's what you don't do." I didn't do jack shit for her. The Bruno Mars song, When I Was Your Man describes it perfectly. Those are things any and every girl wants, but I never did any romantic gestures or showed much affection. So, that's why she thought I didn't love her. And now that's why all the nice things from from her new, very muscular, very good looking, romantic European man seems fake. She saw the potential in me, and that's why she stuck around for two years. But how long is someone expected to hang on for someone else to get their shit together? Had I found these subliminals while we were dating, I would have ran Life Tune-Up, and we'd still probably be together. I'm very thankful she stuck with and believed in me for as long as she did. I also don't blame her for leaving me. I wasn't happy with myself and my life, but she still stayed.
During the half time show of the Super Bowl, she came down and kissed me on the cheek, didn't even say a word.
And I shit you not as I'm sitting here typing this, she just now came out of her room and is now sitting in the living room with me. Holy shit. She never comes out of her room, let alone is in the same room as me.
If she would like to get back with me anytime soon, I'd have to turn her down. I want to focus on myself and grow into an Alpha male and finish school. Perhaps in two years or so if we ever meet up we can see what happens.
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Ok, so resuming this.
I'm fairly certain she's a much more resilient and independent person than me. She's a go-getter. If this is still bothering her that much, I wonder how I would be without the subs. These have probably really helped me move on. It's awesome; I've totally put the past behind me and know that my future is going to be full of success and happiness.
haha i am laughing as I read through this man. Its when you are trying to move on or have moved on is when they want to get back together. Don't know if anybody else on the forum shares the same experience but I had a somewhat similar situation to yours a few years ago. I cut her off!I decided it was for the best because I couldn't wait around for her to change her mind all the time and I couldn't deal with the BS anymore. It just wasn't worth it. I told myself I deserved better and that still holds true. No use beating yourself about finding the subs before and telling yourself stuff like then this would have happened and that would have happened. Leave the old shit behind and focus on the new.Shit is going to get crazy from here onwards.
Bro one piece of sincere advice, please refrain from listening to those Bruno Mars songs. They will mess your head up like crazy. The pussy ass /pansy songs are adding up to men not being ALPHA MEN in this day and age. I had my epiphany about NOT EVER LISTENING TO songs like that is when I was in the bathroom one day shaving and singing in a girls voice to some trance song and that day itself I deleted all those beta male songs. Buff guys at my gym are singing along to beta male/soft songs which is friggin HILARIOUS if you ask me.
Good luck on your journey and looking forward to hearing about your life.
