01-27-2014, 10:54 AM
5 days of stage 5, I see subtle change when I'm outside with people. It's not a lot but I wouldn't have done that by myself alone. It's like I'm a different person but always been like this. People treat me differently, I see when they are looking at me they don't see the same person. When I'm riding my motorcycle I notice I'm not afraid when cars get near me. It's strange because it should fear me but doesn't anymore. It can be dangerous If I don't pay attention.
With all that there are still a part of me that doesn't trust Shannon sub completely. I know it's working but I don't want to be trapped. This behavior save me in the past when I was half blind, I wouldn't be there without this. And I understand why my friend don't believe me when I try to convince them that this sub really work. Even for me it's hard to believe yet I have seen stuff way crazier than that.
You have to be really open minded to try this kind of product. It brings me this internal question of mine. Why I'm like that and not my friend around me? I'm always trying to find a solution to living better while people just ignore it completely. Even when I was 9 I didn't accept the way people where behaving, they tried to shape me but I didn't conform to their way of life.
My English teacher ask me if I was a genius 1 month ago, I told her I didn't think so (in French).
I'm reading a book about subliminal perception and one thing attract my attention. The book describes genius children, they say genius children have a lower threshold. The more I think about it the more I think I'm a bit of a genius too because I always saw what people would just ignore. It would be awesome to lower this threshold a bit more. I'm wondering if Shannon can build a sub who can do that.
I think it's possible because when I smoke weed I feel like the threshold gets lower but in the process I lose control and get paranoid. But it's like I have more access to my subconscious. But I hate to get paranoid so I don't smoke anymore. When I smoked I would write everything I was thinking just to be sure I wasn't paranoid. And when I read what I was writing I can't understand all of it, it's like I was a different person. Now I understand it might be because of that threshold.
With all that there are still a part of me that doesn't trust Shannon sub completely. I know it's working but I don't want to be trapped. This behavior save me in the past when I was half blind, I wouldn't be there without this. And I understand why my friend don't believe me when I try to convince them that this sub really work. Even for me it's hard to believe yet I have seen stuff way crazier than that.
You have to be really open minded to try this kind of product. It brings me this internal question of mine. Why I'm like that and not my friend around me? I'm always trying to find a solution to living better while people just ignore it completely. Even when I was 9 I didn't accept the way people where behaving, they tried to shape me but I didn't conform to their way of life.
My English teacher ask me if I was a genius 1 month ago, I told her I didn't think so (in French).
I'm reading a book about subliminal perception and one thing attract my attention. The book describes genius children, they say genius children have a lower threshold. The more I think about it the more I think I'm a bit of a genius too because I always saw what people would just ignore. It would be awesome to lower this threshold a bit more. I'm wondering if Shannon can build a sub who can do that.
I think it's possible because when I smoke weed I feel like the threshold gets lower but in the process I lose control and get paranoid. But it's like I have more access to my subconscious. But I hate to get paranoid so I don't smoke anymore. When I smoked I would write everything I was thinking just to be sure I wasn't paranoid. And when I read what I was writing I can't understand all of it, it's like I was a different person. Now I understand it might be because of that threshold.
