01-20-2014, 08:52 AM
Stage 1 - Day 23 - Total Exposure 264 hours
Had a dream last night that I was in this living room with my grandmother and my dad. Dad starts talking about something important and I see my grandmother (who's pretty controlling) start to loose interest and dismiss what my Dad was saying then started to talk over him, I then looked straight at her and I felt so much anger I yelled "Shut the fuck up grandma and let Dad speak!" She looked at me like :O then stood up and walked around confused then walked out of the room looking back at me in shock. Intense stuff.
Noticeably more irritable and angry today. Seem to have some victim mentality coming up and beliefs that my parents keep me from being successful. Truth is it's me and only me that keeps me from being successful. I need to work on that.
I used to read abit about conspiracy theories cause I was so bored with my life I had nothing better to do, I had stopped doing that for a good 6months, last night for some reason I decided to start looking at conspiracy theories and reptiles and all that shit again lol. Then today I noticed I was more angry and blaming stuff more. So I'm not gonna look up conscpiracy elite theories no more, I don't need it and it's a stupid waste of my time.
Going to start doing some body stretching to help loosen me up a bit. I'm very very rigid at the moment, I did this stretch and started vibrating in my chest and abdomen, like a shit load. So going to be working on it. It's the Elliott Hulse bioenergetics warm up... Yes he's crazy but he's also alpha and respectable.
Gym later woo!
Had a dream last night that I was in this living room with my grandmother and my dad. Dad starts talking about something important and I see my grandmother (who's pretty controlling) start to loose interest and dismiss what my Dad was saying then started to talk over him, I then looked straight at her and I felt so much anger I yelled "Shut the fuck up grandma and let Dad speak!" She looked at me like :O then stood up and walked around confused then walked out of the room looking back at me in shock. Intense stuff.
Noticeably more irritable and angry today. Seem to have some victim mentality coming up and beliefs that my parents keep me from being successful. Truth is it's me and only me that keeps me from being successful. I need to work on that.
I used to read abit about conspiracy theories cause I was so bored with my life I had nothing better to do, I had stopped doing that for a good 6months, last night for some reason I decided to start looking at conspiracy theories and reptiles and all that shit again lol. Then today I noticed I was more angry and blaming stuff more. So I'm not gonna look up conscpiracy elite theories no more, I don't need it and it's a stupid waste of my time.
Going to start doing some body stretching to help loosen me up a bit. I'm very very rigid at the moment, I did this stretch and started vibrating in my chest and abdomen, like a shit load. So going to be working on it. It's the Elliott Hulse bioenergetics warm up... Yes he's crazy but he's also alpha and respectable.
Gym later woo!
