01-18-2014, 08:13 AM
(01-17-2014, 08:07 PM)DanAmerson Wrote: Yeah, the gym is a major thing that comes up, especially in Stage 1.
In Stage 2, you might look at some elite sports, and feel displeased with your own abilities (perhaps you'll feel "weak"), and might want to push it even further.
But I'm referencing AM5, a whole different animal.
Your dreams are pretty radical, my friend.
Yeah, I'm actually quite amazed usually I doubt the subliminals in the past, but this AM6 gym motivation, it's definitely there.
I started going to the gym before AM6 but it was, like Geodude said, half assing it, also feeling intimidated by other guys at the gym and not having focus.
Now I walk in the gym, pay my £2 go grab some weight with focus and go for it... My friend mentioned "You don't wanna get too pumped" I laughed, you gotta go for it at the gym...
Hows your gym stuff going Dan? I see you are trying steak and eggs?
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Stage 1 - Day 21 - Total Exposure - 254 hours
Had some more wild dreams last night that I can't remember all of them.
One dream I do remember was I was walking to a class at my old school and on the way there I saw an old acquaintance who stopped me and started talking about the gym and how much he lifts. I was listening thinking "Cool story bro" then I carried on walking into the class. This class was the class I used to dread at my old school, I had alot of friends in there but for some reason I always had lots of anxiety and depression in that room... It was music class
Anyway I got in and sat down on my table with my old mates and started talking and having a laugh. Then the teacher walks past and I for some reason shout "AND I FUCKING RAPED IT" really loud and the whole classroom goes silent... then I feel utterly embarrassed and say "I raped it...like raped the guitar I played it so good..." fuck knows what I was on about lol. anyway it was a funny dream might symbolize my fear of voicing my opinion for fear I will be embarrassed.
Apart from the gym motivation and crazy ass dreams, I have nothing else to report on. I still feel anxiety in certain social situations and I feel depressed still on and off... But I'm hanging in there!
