Shannon's BAMM 2.0 Journal

[Shannon]

That's been my self talk lately Shannon. Stage 10 has been brutal but I've just had to be like "Yo Spiral. It's cool."

Having all my tasks in organized lists and making new tasks as they pop up into my head has really helped me as well in this process. Sounds like you're enjoying the benefits of having a task manager/lists.

I discovered that my bank has a budget app, on it's website, so I set up a budget, and I have a major goal and the goals I need to accomplish to achieve the major goal. So it's a short list, and each thing makes crystal clear sense, and I know exactly when and what needs to be done. But I am still battling something... yesterday I forced myself to stay awake all day long with caffeine so I would sleep all night, only to be reminded that my body is ultra-sensitive to caffeine and it kept me awake all night. Ugh, I am so tired of this.

So artificial solutions aren't doing it. Time for magnum willpower and determination.

I have on the drawing board a subliminal for instant (or near instant) erectile response with sex drive increase, which is what I understand the pills for that stuff do. I also have on the drawing board a subliminal for nasal decongestant, which I couldn't resist building yesterday afternoon when the models said it would work. I tested it on myself, and even though I wasn't congested... I'll be damned if it didn't work. I can't wait to do more testing on this.

There are also programs on the drawing board for sleep aid and awakener, based in 5G subliminal. Digital drugs have also been on my mind. Think I'm going to build the sleep aid and see if I can use it to make my sleeping patterns normal again, and the awakener to keep me awake long enough to be productive if I can't.

Then there's a next gen version of pain relief on the drawing boards, which I could also use to combine with the decongestant to help with sinus headaches...

so much awesome stuff to do. But, 3rd Gen upgrades... sigh. I hate doing work I have already done.