Shannon's BAMM 2.0 Journal

[Shannon]

What I have to face, and deal with fear of, has turned out quite differently than I expected. At first I met with a lot of subconscious fear and resistance, and this made me feel awful and managed to kill me for a few days with accomplishing what I needed to do. But then I got upset and basically told my inner self, "Look, I know you're scared, but this needs to get done. It's nothing to be afraid of, I promise you. You might as well relax, because we are doing this one way or the other, whether either of us wants to or not. There's no way out of it, and that fact is out of my hands and yours. So just relax and trust me, and I'll make sure we're safe."

The fear faded after that over a period of several hours, after which I completely forgot about it, and started getting things accomplished.

I accomplished a couple things and immediatly ran into complications. What I expected to take 1-2 days will probably require a month. But, I have been doing at least one thing every day on the list, and today I was driving home from accomplishing the day's appointed task, and I was struck by the fact that I have no fear now. None. I juts pick a task on the list, and get it done. Nothing stops me. Nothing slows me down (but traffic, hehe). And day by day I am doing exactly what I need to do to kill this challenge.

I hope to have almost all of it dealt with in the next day or two.