09-27-2010, 05:58 AM
(09-26-2010, 12:47 PM)Ryan Wrote: I understand what you mean about becoming 'emotionally immobilized', I think my effort in Woman Magnet actually made my anxiety go crazy and I started to develop paranoia and severe social anxiety. I'm doing the Overcome Anxiety sub now to hopefully kill those strong inner fears inside of me. For the most part, the past week I've had some severely depressing moments also, but it isn't any worse than depressing memories from my past, in fact it really resembles a lot of my teenage years. Some people go into the program stronger than others, we all start at a different level so don't use others success to compare to your own. I'm sure your next attempt will be much easier sorting out these issues beforehand, best of luck!
Not that it’s that much to worry about, but I hope that the Alpha Male doesn’t overly dominate the Overcoming Anxiety sub for you as it did to me, the effects of the ASC sub at the time were pretty much overwhelmed while sinking me into the first depressive phase of Stage 1, which started to clear up after about two and a half weeks. By using LAY and OSA I hope to take the edge of that, along with addressing some core issues that have been a leading thread throughout my life. And I will have a better opportunity to make the best of Alpha Male without the need to screw it up again by switching programs during the process.
What helped to get the pressure a little bit off during the depressive phase was to write about my past, and just cry without holding back (which can be pretty hard to do), you could feel old and raw built up sadness coming up. It also helped me gain certain insights about my past, and it became more clear to me that it was actually pretty much inevitable that I garnered so much issues throughout my life. It also sucks to realize that we’ve wasted years on becoming experts on how to make ourselves feel completely miserable :/
Good luck to you as well, I hope that in a couple of months time you won't have to deal with anxiety or irrational fears and be just the person that you are intended to be
