12-05-2013, 10:23 PM
Thanks, I really wish I had begun journaling my progress earlier so people could see just how much I've changed.
I forgot to add, I'm doing OGSF as well, started it in the middle of stage 5 and will continue until stage 6 is over. I know it'll be included in AM6 but I need the head start to deal with my "fear of success" issues.
It's absolutely true that when you're in a depression and you're in poor spirits other people can sense it and want nothing to do with you. I remember a couple years ago my roommate had a get-together at our house with some of his work friends, and afterwards I was pissed since none of them seemed to even want to acknowledge my existence. My friend said it's because I gave off a pissed-off demeanor that made me unapproachable. I'm an extrovert by nature, it's hard to want to connect with people and but for whatever reason no one seems to want to do the same. So it became a vicious cycle: I couldn't make new friends, which just fueled my hatred for everything and everyone.
And it's true that confidence trumps looks. Not to be immodest, but I am a pretty good-looking guy, I've modeled before, I've competed in physique shows, etc. so I have the body that could pull in tail easily, but without confidence it means nothing.
So it's amazing how much of this inner crap I've managed to purge in the last several months.
I forgot to add, I'm doing OGSF as well, started it in the middle of stage 5 and will continue until stage 6 is over. I know it'll be included in AM6 but I need the head start to deal with my "fear of success" issues.
It's absolutely true that when you're in a depression and you're in poor spirits other people can sense it and want nothing to do with you. I remember a couple years ago my roommate had a get-together at our house with some of his work friends, and afterwards I was pissed since none of them seemed to even want to acknowledge my existence. My friend said it's because I gave off a pissed-off demeanor that made me unapproachable. I'm an extrovert by nature, it's hard to want to connect with people and but for whatever reason no one seems to want to do the same. So it became a vicious cycle: I couldn't make new friends, which just fueled my hatred for everything and everyone.
And it's true that confidence trumps looks. Not to be immodest, but I am a pretty good-looking guy, I've modeled before, I've competed in physique shows, etc. so I have the body that could pull in tail easily, but without confidence it means nothing.
So it's amazing how much of this inner crap I've managed to purge in the last several months.
