11-24-2013, 11:37 AM
AM5 Stage 2, Day 32 - 10 h/day
OGFS Day 31 - 4 h/day
noFAP Day 23
Many things happened since the last post. Happy that OGFS made its presence - pretty powerful.
Positives:
- opened a savings bank account + transfer some money in a couple of minutes. I hate everything related paper work (including the electronic one) and I postponed this action for almost one year. I was literally shocked when I did the necessary steps automatically, without any internal debate.
- the drive to listen subliminals increased a lot in no of hours / day.
- the mental masturbation almost disappeared. Before, I thought at women while going to sleep or in the morning a lot (like fantasies). Now, it's gone and I'm extremely pleased. I still like women
but I want to focus all my energy to my personality until the end of AM5.
- less tendency to criticize myself or criticize / gossip others.
- the overthinking drastically reduced. Now, it can happen when someone / event really drives me nuts.
- not fapped for almost one month.
- more and more conscious that the days are passing and I have to do something to live my life to the fullest.
- unaffected too much when I am not invited to events or when I am ignored. It can happen. Before AM5, an ignore made me almost depressed.
- last week at Toastmasters, after almost 2 months of absence, people told me I look so confident while speaking although I was shaking internally. Hope they really mean it and they didn't do this just to encourage me.
- bought airplane tickets + booked hotel for London 1st quarter of 2014. The idea appeared and was executed in 30 min and, again, I was shocked of how rapidly I took action. I will have to visit as much TM clubs as possible in a short period of time. I will go alone which is even better as I will face all my fears in front of unknown audience.
Negatives:
- procrastination - I hate that I am not able to manage my time as I should. I am totally incompetent at doing what I should, instead I am browsing Internet like an idiot or I do other unimportant things. I am losing so much time on totally trashy tasks. I don't know if AM5 will solve this problem, but I really really really need to Overcome my procrastination. Life is passing away, our days are counted. What am I going to leave behind, or what experiences will I have recorded in mind?
- the tendency not to go out sometimes to socialize is increasing slightly. I expect it will balance during the stage 5 or 6.
- still cannot handle/avoid a face to face confrontation - I am nice, I avoid conflict and I prefer to react afterwards. Not good, not good.
- passivity - related to the previous point.
Extremely impressed by this story.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9NjKgV65fpo
This is what I call living my life to the fullest. When it will happen to go away, all that matters for me is what I experiences I will take and what I will leave behind.
OGFS Day 31 - 4 h/day
noFAP Day 23
Many things happened since the last post. Happy that OGFS made its presence - pretty powerful.
Positives:
- opened a savings bank account + transfer some money in a couple of minutes. I hate everything related paper work (including the electronic one) and I postponed this action for almost one year. I was literally shocked when I did the necessary steps automatically, without any internal debate.
- the drive to listen subliminals increased a lot in no of hours / day.
- the mental masturbation almost disappeared. Before, I thought at women while going to sleep or in the morning a lot (like fantasies). Now, it's gone and I'm extremely pleased. I still like women
but I want to focus all my energy to my personality until the end of AM5.- less tendency to criticize myself or criticize / gossip others.
- the overthinking drastically reduced. Now, it can happen when someone / event really drives me nuts.
- not fapped for almost one month.
- more and more conscious that the days are passing and I have to do something to live my life to the fullest.
- unaffected too much when I am not invited to events or when I am ignored. It can happen. Before AM5, an ignore made me almost depressed.
- last week at Toastmasters, after almost 2 months of absence, people told me I look so confident while speaking although I was shaking internally. Hope they really mean it and they didn't do this just to encourage me.
- bought airplane tickets + booked hotel for London 1st quarter of 2014. The idea appeared and was executed in 30 min and, again, I was shocked of how rapidly I took action. I will have to visit as much TM clubs as possible in a short period of time. I will go alone which is even better as I will face all my fears in front of unknown audience.
Negatives:
- procrastination - I hate that I am not able to manage my time as I should. I am totally incompetent at doing what I should, instead I am browsing Internet like an idiot or I do other unimportant things. I am losing so much time on totally trashy tasks. I don't know if AM5 will solve this problem, but I really really really need to Overcome my procrastination. Life is passing away, our days are counted. What am I going to leave behind, or what experiences will I have recorded in mind?
- the tendency not to go out sometimes to socialize is increasing slightly. I expect it will balance during the stage 5 or 6.
- still cannot handle/avoid a face to face confrontation - I am nice, I avoid conflict and I prefer to react afterwards. Not good, not good.
- passivity - related to the previous point.
Extremely impressed by this story.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9NjKgV65fpo
This is what I call living my life to the fullest. When it will happen to go away, all that matters for me is what I experiences I will take and what I will leave behind.
