Fluffybunny's Sex Magnet 3 Journal

[FluffyBunny]

Usually i just walk around on my way to class or whereever im going.
since im on campus there lots and lots of young girls walking around to classes .
A lot less now its probly cause its freezing cold now as well as finals starting to come..
and my goodness its hard to see how they look like now cause of big ass winter coats and hats and scarfs lol.

anyways

usually i go about my ways. then i walk past a cute girl i like.
or when i go library ... or w.e im going

i usually just say hey i just saw u and i think ur cute wanted to say hello.
then we go about our conversation then i get the number at the end..

thing is most of the time my conversations are short...and pretty much surface fluff talk..
im currently working on ... just having longer conversation other then having a flight response and take her number and leave.

i pretty much got my opening down long time ago.... stupid how its been so long and im still only a little better at the other stuff...
although i did see myself in god mode/in the zone once . i pretty much said similar things but my goodness i was in such good state and such strong attitude i had..

other then that.
i had 3 girl over for group project.
1 left...
then 2 stay...chatted
they did talk about their own relationships and their bfs'
the a little bit on gays and lesbian. and sex related stuff
then another girl left..

this girl that stayed i already know she kinda likes me, but im only OK with her....
99.9% sure she wanted me to escalate something lol

anyways other then that i went out to that place i mentioned yesterday.
got there..
was packed...
got my free shot from the bartender...
walked around once
then i left lol .
didnt feel anything ..
people were just in their own groups...
i just decided meh this is too tiring so i came home

EDIT:
one thing i just realized...
i think OGSF. made me not feel shameful about getting an escort ....
cause i was asking myself...why do i not feel like a douchebag having this thought?
although on that first day i had this thought there was a huge emotional mix of stuff in the chest...
of course... i havnt gotten one .

other then that probly gonna stop going out for a month.... gotta study and its way to dam cold outside lol....
gonna just do some self reflections and do some thinking

im also trying to work on building an social circle..
seems like its not working that well....
overall technically u can say i only met that bartender..who knows me now ...

other then that...all the other people was girls from cold approaches that who knows where they are now....

obviously i know most people from my school.... but im talking about like outside of it.

i still think i feel quite needy even though i dont feel it on the surface and its hard to know whats going on..
i think sometimes i actually do feel it on the surface.
still working on this .....too

EDIT2:
one more thing im not quite sure
why i dont feel like jerking off at all ...today
i mean i havnt masturbate for like 3-4 days already. should be horny as fuck and get off fast... but im not feeling it... weird
obviously im getting a boner fast and all but im not excited....
wait...maybe i am excited but SOMEHOW i dont feel like it use to feel like =o=
my conclusion is that.... i think my body thinks if dam boring to do it... and it just feels fuckin boring.... so even when its turned on.. it doesnt feel like getting off...
i think my body just wants to feel the real thing right now.... therefore porn is not doing it at the moment... so i dont get excited much..