09-23-2010, 08:18 AM
Day 16 of level 2.Half way through it.
I didn't noticed dramatic results from level 2 yet.Seem to be the same behavior and usual.
There were some stuff that happened internally.Had some self image stuff
coming up few days ago.It's not emotional stuff,it's thoughts coming up about not succeeding enough,not being attractive to women and general thoughts of unworthiness.Like my my is spewing **** out.Just the thoughts without real emotion to them.
Had a small panic attack when was going to fall a sleep two days ago.Doubts,
uncertainty.I respond to those events and emotions by watching them knowing it's working.
There's a quiet desperation feeling during the last few days.I'm having doubts about my life and myself.I'm noticing women lately feeling almost needy and at the same time not caring.It's like I'm also at times invisible to them.It's like I can't find any reason for them to be attracted to me.
Other than that I started some now projects I wanted to do.I also got
juggling balls yesterday and started to work on it.It's real fun and helps
me relax after.I'm think I got the basic exchange down.
I'm not sure what's supposed to happen with this stage.
I didn't noticed dramatic results from level 2 yet.Seem to be the same behavior and usual.
There were some stuff that happened internally.Had some self image stuff
coming up few days ago.It's not emotional stuff,it's thoughts coming up about not succeeding enough,not being attractive to women and general thoughts of unworthiness.Like my my is spewing **** out.Just the thoughts without real emotion to them.
Had a small panic attack when was going to fall a sleep two days ago.Doubts,
uncertainty.I respond to those events and emotions by watching them knowing it's working.
There's a quiet desperation feeling during the last few days.I'm having doubts about my life and myself.I'm noticing women lately feeling almost needy and at the same time not caring.It's like I'm also at times invisible to them.It's like I can't find any reason for them to be attracted to me.
Other than that I started some now projects I wanted to do.I also got
juggling balls yesterday and started to work on it.It's real fun and helps
me relax after.I'm think I got the basic exchange down.
I'm not sure what's supposed to happen with this stage.
