10-24-2013, 05:14 AM
(This post was last modified: 10-24-2013, 05:22 AM by AlphaScorpio.)
@SargeMaximus Yeh we did, but then she said stuff was weird between us and didnt want me to come over again, guess she wasn't really ready.
I don't know what specifically causes the resistance, but I'm pretty sure that the reason AM hasn't been working as well for me as I'd like it to is because of fear and shame. This is why I have hope in AM6 because it has OGSF and 5g etc.
@stratos I only breath deeply when I think about it, and yes It varies, sometimes it's uncomfortable to the point where there might be a bit of a pain, other times I can't get a full satisfying breath without having to breath shallow with my shoulders going up etc. and sometimes I can breath with my stomach but there always feels like theres a bit of a block from it going completely the full way, know what this could be?
@Ace I do agree with what you are saying that negativity breeds negativity and focusing on the negativity makes it worse, but I've been trying to stay positive the whole time on AM5 and every now and then (you'll notice) I have these big downfall posts where it's like "Fuuuck everything's gone downhill" etc. For the most part of stage 4 and 5 I did set it and forget it, and I didn't really notice much lol.
I think you can tell when a sub is really working when your outside reality changes, when people show you more respect, girls check you out and become more obvious etc. I haven't really noticed much of that (maybe a couple of days where it's clicked in the whole 6 months). It's hard to be optimistic when it's clearly not doing much. The naturalizer is still ok because even if I don't notice the results other people would and they'd probably treat me different or say something like "you've changed" but I haven't noticed much of that.
For example I was at least expecting my friend to start respecting me more during AM5, some days when I was feeling good and upbeat he'd show more respect, but for the most part I still feel he isn't respecting shit about me, and I can't make him do that it's annoying because like I've said countless times in posts When I first start a stage the first week is usually where I see most results, it's like I go to sleep wake up "Okay something feels different, oh shit I feel great" Day 2 "Okay I doubt this will last, but oh shit more results" day 3, 4, 5 etc. But then when I get to about week and a half/ 2 weeks everything either goes downhill or nothing really happens and I go back to my baseline state I have no fucking idea what that's all about, IS IT PLACEBO? or am I stonewalling? idk.
The fact that my mum said that I haven't changed at all says alot. My parents do still moan at me about the same things they moaned at me before AM as well lol.
I don't know what specifically causes the resistance, but I'm pretty sure that the reason AM hasn't been working as well for me as I'd like it to is because of fear and shame. This is why I have hope in AM6 because it has OGSF and 5g etc.
@stratos I only breath deeply when I think about it, and yes It varies, sometimes it's uncomfortable to the point where there might be a bit of a pain, other times I can't get a full satisfying breath without having to breath shallow with my shoulders going up etc. and sometimes I can breath with my stomach but there always feels like theres a bit of a block from it going completely the full way, know what this could be?
@Ace I do agree with what you are saying that negativity breeds negativity and focusing on the negativity makes it worse, but I've been trying to stay positive the whole time on AM5 and every now and then (you'll notice) I have these big downfall posts where it's like "Fuuuck everything's gone downhill" etc. For the most part of stage 4 and 5 I did set it and forget it, and I didn't really notice much lol.
I think you can tell when a sub is really working when your outside reality changes, when people show you more respect, girls check you out and become more obvious etc. I haven't really noticed much of that (maybe a couple of days where it's clicked in the whole 6 months). It's hard to be optimistic when it's clearly not doing much. The naturalizer is still ok because even if I don't notice the results other people would and they'd probably treat me different or say something like "you've changed" but I haven't noticed much of that.
For example I was at least expecting my friend to start respecting me more during AM5, some days when I was feeling good and upbeat he'd show more respect, but for the most part I still feel he isn't respecting shit about me, and I can't make him do that it's annoying because like I've said countless times in posts When I first start a stage the first week is usually where I see most results, it's like I go to sleep wake up "Okay something feels different, oh shit I feel great" Day 2 "Okay I doubt this will last, but oh shit more results" day 3, 4, 5 etc. But then when I get to about week and a half/ 2 weeks everything either goes downhill or nothing really happens and I go back to my baseline state I have no fucking idea what that's all about, IS IT PLACEBO? or am I stonewalling? idk.
The fact that my mum said that I haven't changed at all says alot. My parents do still moan at me about the same things they moaned at me before AM as well lol.
