10-14-2013, 07:12 PM
Stage 6 Day 20
My Gosh. Can it be more challenging then this shit.?
seriously. not one time. i find that of all 6 stages i would end up fuckin myself over on stage 6 .
stage 1 was depressing but nothing like this.
it drives me nuts. that i am invested into this girl that much.
i guess it took 1 month of sub for me to realize that i actually fuckin like her. and boom made a move.
shit went sideways. and was still unclear. WTF.
so weekend all 4 days my emotion is like a rollarcoaster .
one moment im like . Whatever. no big deal. girls every where so easy to find.....
next moment im like. holy shit..... do i even like her?
next moment im like. ......da hell is this? im depressed? ...what is this a joke?..
next moment im laughing. and thinking why even bother stressing out just make another move next time u see her...
next moment im stressing... wow da hell am i gonna do.
and....... this depression is fucked up to be honest =_= ...
its funny i was flying through all 6 stages without much depression or anger or anything sort of anything at all.
only when something in my life. is effecting my mood or mind. then that feeling gets exponentially increased and it really fucks ... my chest energy up a lot .
Oh....well tomorrow is the day. to know.
sigh ....
My Gosh. Can it be more challenging then this shit.?
seriously. not one time. i find that of all 6 stages i would end up fuckin myself over on stage 6 .
stage 1 was depressing but nothing like this.
it drives me nuts. that i am invested into this girl that much.
i guess it took 1 month of sub for me to realize that i actually fuckin like her. and boom made a move.
shit went sideways. and was still unclear. WTF.
so weekend all 4 days my emotion is like a rollarcoaster .
one moment im like . Whatever. no big deal. girls every where so easy to find.....
next moment im like. holy shit..... do i even like her?
next moment im like. ......da hell is this? im depressed? ...what is this a joke?..
next moment im laughing. and thinking why even bother stressing out just make another move next time u see her...
next moment im stressing... wow da hell am i gonna do.
and....... this depression is fucked up to be honest =_= ...
its funny i was flying through all 6 stages without much depression or anger or anything sort of anything at all.
only when something in my life. is effecting my mood or mind. then that feeling gets exponentially increased and it really fucks ... my chest energy up a lot .
Oh....well tomorrow is the day. to know.
sigh ....
I am strong because I've been weak. I am fearless because I've been afraid. I am wise, because I've been foolish.
