10-12-2013, 05:08 PM
(10-12-2013, 08:49 AM)Roy Wrote: Stage 1 day 14
TLDR version:I'm not a virgin anymore.
It took 12 days for SM 3.0 to work.I had a lot of resistance and emotional stuff coming during the 8 and 9 days.It passed eventually.Wasn't fun.
Chatted with the women from the previous post during the week.Met her when going to dancing.It was interesting thing on the way there with a strong out of synce sort of dreamy feel to it combing with hyper awareness of my enviorment with all my senses extremlly clear and my brain being overclocked.There was sort of knowingness also about it.
I see her there and was very sexual with her there,holding her,kissing her,kissing her on the mouth shoulders and neck.Spent a lot of time with her during the evening and in the end we decided to go to her place to feed her cat than to mine.
We never got to my place.I took her clothes off.Got her to her bed and started foreplay and was a lot more slower and more intentional this time.
I contintued,tried experimenting with doing stuff during the foreplay,holding her,kissing her.I put on a condom.The light was on,I didn't really gave her a chance to close it this time.Practicing putting a condom at home helped.
I figured out how to get it in the hole thrusting,changing the rhytem and depth,not really knowing what I'm doing.It was very nice and interseting.
Than I thought after it,I have started SM 3.0,180 more days than BAMM.
She was making faces and closing her eyes and it was interesting to calibrate her responses to what I was doing.I didn't have my watch on so I don't know I long it took.She moved her pelvic area a lot.It was lots of fun.
I cuddled with her later,we talked,I asked her like Shannon wrote for what she enjoys and how I did.She asked if I want the truth of not.I said the truth and she said not bad.She mentioned she likes the condoms like she has that are extra thin and what I had less.Also to turn the woman on more and check she is wet first.Apparently she wasn't when I entered.
How do I get her wet and how do I check it?
In the morning we got up,talked,had breakfast.She hugged me a lot and was very close,stroked me a lot too.She walked with me to bus station and gave me a kiss goodbye.
She texted during the day.Met her in the evening,wet to a club,I wasn't in the same state and wasn't too focused.She was also somewhat more reserved,didn't responded as much to kisses.I was feeling bit weird and not well,felt her shutting down during the evening.
I suggested we get to my place,she said it would be a bad idea but she came.She s**t tested hard on the way on various stuff.Saying I have sex like 16 years old virgin and other stuff.She was closed when we got home.
Tried to test things a bit,she wasn't responsive,no kisses or anything so I backed that off.We went to sleep,I talked to her in bed,we cuddled a bit and I was very emotionally open with her.At that point she went back to responding to kissed.It was late,I was tired and she was too.She metioned that she was planning on dumping me.
In the morning we got up,she held me.I made har breakfast and we talked and it was nice.She even suggested to help to clean the dishes so I accepted.It fun let her do the dishes while kissing her neck,back and shoulders.We talked some more and she left.
The naturalizer is brilliant,I wouldn't have believed I do those things so fast
and like I did them.Very smooth confident and in control in lots of things I did.I feel different but I can't put my finger on it if I'm not searching for it.
I'm also catching myself talking deeper and more loudly.
That's awesome.
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Seek the challenge and step outside your comfort zone.