09-21-2013, 03:57 AM
(This post was last modified: 09-21-2013, 03:59 AM by AlphaScorpio.)
Stage 5 Day 21 - This last week I've been very ill and had to stay off college for 4 days in a row during this time I felt very irritable, pissed off and moody. I went out for the first time last night and wow I felt very beta and had some of the old social anxiety pop back in, I went to my mate's sister's 21st birthday and all her mates were there, I just felt quite uncomfortable and it felt like I was trapped in beta mentality, this girl apparently liked the look of me and came sat next to me but I just didnt have the balls to start talking to her til like 10 minutes later when I turned around and made a shit joke then asked her really boring questions lol. wasn't good man :/
Been frustrated I was thinking that by stage 5 that I'd be over all of this crap maybe it's just my behaviors are relapsing into old patterns until I hit some new level of change.
Been frustrated I was thinking that by stage 5 that I'd be over all of this crap maybe it's just my behaviors are relapsing into old patterns until I hit some new level of change.
