09-01-2013, 07:50 AM
Stage 2 Day 2
This last week at school has been marvelous. I have changed so much since last year it's unbelievable. Before I was anxious, uptight, and had an ocean of suppressed anger. During the last school year I understood the concepts of the alpha male. Now my behaviors and ideas are starting to become inseparable.
For one, I'm starting to realize B.S.. I'm thinking for myself and I'm challenging the knowledge that has been given to me since I was born.
I get things done. Procrastination has been diminished a great deal.
People wanna be around me more often.
I push myself to be courageous.
When I want something, I usually ask.
I'm learning I don't have to entertain anyone. I can just relax and I'm becoming more comfortable with silence.
The biggest one for me is I'm becoming more at peace with being assertive. I've been raised my entire life not to be assertive. I do not think my parents did it intentionally, it's just that I've been too "nice." So here is the story that goes along with this. A few days ago I posted something on twitter. This one girl made a sarcastic remark. I was assertive yet very polite. Which is amazing because before I would have been too crushed to even respond. I expected her to be mad at me, because she is a "popular" girl and popular girls usually do whatever they want, but when I saw her at the football game the next day she was overjoyed to see me. She gave me a big hug and asked to take a picture with me.
That was pretty cool.
There is still work to be done, but right now I'm pretty happy.
This last week at school has been marvelous. I have changed so much since last year it's unbelievable. Before I was anxious, uptight, and had an ocean of suppressed anger. During the last school year I understood the concepts of the alpha male. Now my behaviors and ideas are starting to become inseparable.
For one, I'm starting to realize B.S.. I'm thinking for myself and I'm challenging the knowledge that has been given to me since I was born.
I get things done. Procrastination has been diminished a great deal.
People wanna be around me more often.
I push myself to be courageous.
When I want something, I usually ask.
I'm learning I don't have to entertain anyone. I can just relax and I'm becoming more comfortable with silence.
The biggest one for me is I'm becoming more at peace with being assertive. I've been raised my entire life not to be assertive. I do not think my parents did it intentionally, it's just that I've been too "nice." So here is the story that goes along with this. A few days ago I posted something on twitter. This one girl made a sarcastic remark. I was assertive yet very polite. Which is amazing because before I would have been too crushed to even respond. I expected her to be mad at me, because she is a "popular" girl and popular girls usually do whatever they want, but when I saw her at the football game the next day she was overjoyed to see me. She gave me a big hug and asked to take a picture with me.
That was pretty cool.
There is still work to be done, but right now I'm pretty happy.
