07-26-2013, 01:02 PM
(This post was last modified: 07-26-2013, 01:12 PM by AlphaScorpio.)
So I was talking to one of my best friends today, I was in a bit of a shit mood tbh. My friend starts talking about why me and my other friend (the one who got annoyed with me when I didnt give him a cigarette) have this weird tension. We discussed it for a while then he said "Yeah Ed says he has to be in the right mood to hang around with you" This made me pretty angry, Im pretty aware that my state affects those around me massively, cause when I'm in a good mood - EVERYONE is in a good mood, when im a bit nervous or depressed/quiet it effects the other people unless we're in a large group, even then it kinda seeps into the vibe a bit.
bit annoyed really, my friend also asked me why it is that I get annoyed with all my friends and I thought about that maybe im just trying to get rid of them and find a better group, people who will support me in my growth instead of being toxic to my state.
I am, however, scared of leaving my old friends behind and finding new ones, I find it hard to make new friends, building trust, rapport and mutual respect etc. Im also quite closed to people these days, especially recently, let's hope I can make some progress in that department when I start college in september.
intersting stuff
bit annoyed really, my friend also asked me why it is that I get annoyed with all my friends and I thought about that maybe im just trying to get rid of them and find a better group, people who will support me in my growth instead of being toxic to my state.
I am, however, scared of leaving my old friends behind and finding new ones, I find it hard to make new friends, building trust, rapport and mutual respect etc. Im also quite closed to people these days, especially recently, let's hope I can make some progress in that department when I start college in september.
intersting stuff
