07-25-2013, 04:54 PM
Here's what I've learned about myself.
I'm a procrastinator. I don't like it, but I can't help and tell myself I'll change that about myself tomorrow, or later in the day. See my issue there?
Recently I started talking to my ex again. I don't know, she's engaged already but nothing in her concerns me. I've had a few chances to sleep with her yesterday but I think i'm over her in that way, but hanging out with her definitely made me remember more why I liked her in the first place (and now I remind myself why we split up in the first place).
Anyway, the procrastination, I can't help it. Here's what I want to have:
I want to be able to put myself out there more, socially, and meet more people, but I find myself making excuses as to why I don't make more friends, and they usually go along the lines of I don't really like them. That and maybe this is an excuse too, but I don't make friends easily because I don't really like them.
I want to market myself. I am a clinical - orthopedic massage therapist and I want to work for myself or as an independent contractor, I do not want to work for someone else much longer despite currently working in one of the best places I could possibly be.
And of course this goes along with the first one, I ideally want to meet that "one" person that I would like to just end up with forever and I think it can happen, but then aren't I really setting myself up for failure because I'm not looking to enjoy the journey with whoever else falls on my path? I don't know. My brain is a mess and I'm trying to figure it out.
I'm a procrastinator. I don't like it, but I can't help and tell myself I'll change that about myself tomorrow, or later in the day. See my issue there?
Recently I started talking to my ex again. I don't know, she's engaged already but nothing in her concerns me. I've had a few chances to sleep with her yesterday but I think i'm over her in that way, but hanging out with her definitely made me remember more why I liked her in the first place (and now I remind myself why we split up in the first place).
Anyway, the procrastination, I can't help it. Here's what I want to have:
I want to be able to put myself out there more, socially, and meet more people, but I find myself making excuses as to why I don't make more friends, and they usually go along the lines of I don't really like them. That and maybe this is an excuse too, but I don't make friends easily because I don't really like them.
I want to market myself. I am a clinical - orthopedic massage therapist and I want to work for myself or as an independent contractor, I do not want to work for someone else much longer despite currently working in one of the best places I could possibly be.
And of course this goes along with the first one, I ideally want to meet that "one" person that I would like to just end up with forever and I think it can happen, but then aren't I really setting myself up for failure because I'm not looking to enjoy the journey with whoever else falls on my path? I don't know. My brain is a mess and I'm trying to figure it out.
