07-11-2013, 07:53 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-11-2013, 07:54 AM by AlphaScorpio.)
After some strong urges for the past few days to add another subliminal to the mix with AM 5 I have decided I won't be using any other subliminal and will finish it to the end. I want to solely focus on becoming my own man and having a positive self esteem and respect. I don't want anything else distracting me from that. So Shannon please ignore my last post, I will use Socializing is just a fun game in the few weeks break I have after stage 6 of AM I think it'll follow up nicely before I start the heavy stuff again with AM 6 stage 1.
It's Stage 3 - Day 14 And today I have felt a little better in terms of anxiety/self esteem, I can still feel it down in my stomach but it feels like it's being diminished, still, I don't feel like going out and socializing or even talking to my family much I just want to do my own thing.
I have spent about 2 hours in the garden with the hot sun doing my 5X5
Workout which includes Squats, Deadlifts and Benchpress. This gave me a nice shot of testosterone for a few hours which always makes you feel better. I then had a cold shower, washed my hair, trimmed up my downstairs for friday night and shaved my beard to some nice side burns.
Also I had cooked some onions in virgin oil and 2 eggs + HQ Protein shake which has really made me feel nice and anabolic, less stressed. So overall good changes regarding my personal hygiene and motivation to make myself healthy. I still feel a bit anxious when I imagine going to see friends...this bothers me but I will just do my own thing until I feel more confident or less worried.
Also feeling pretty confident for tomorrow, I've got all the protection and other things covered, so im looking forward to this, it's a step towards manhood, AM's pushing me to do things I have been scared of.
It's Stage 3 - Day 14 And today I have felt a little better in terms of anxiety/self esteem, I can still feel it down in my stomach but it feels like it's being diminished, still, I don't feel like going out and socializing or even talking to my family much I just want to do my own thing.
I have spent about 2 hours in the garden with the hot sun doing my 5X5
Workout which includes Squats, Deadlifts and Benchpress. This gave me a nice shot of testosterone for a few hours which always makes you feel better. I then had a cold shower, washed my hair, trimmed up my downstairs for friday night and shaved my beard to some nice side burns.
Also I had cooked some onions in virgin oil and 2 eggs + HQ Protein shake which has really made me feel nice and anabolic, less stressed. So overall good changes regarding my personal hygiene and motivation to make myself healthy. I still feel a bit anxious when I imagine going to see friends...this bothers me but I will just do my own thing until I feel more confident or less worried.
Also feeling pretty confident for tomorrow, I've got all the protection and other things covered, so im looking forward to this, it's a step towards manhood, AM's pushing me to do things I have been scared of.
