07-09-2013, 05:17 AM
Finally life is slowing down. For the last three months I have been pounded by work. With the promotion and a pay increase came additional work. I just received the highest rating possible for my performance review.
I'm about one week into stage 4.
Other than being pounded by work nothing major happened through the first three stages.
Motivation was up with a general positive outlook on life. Things seem to click.
It's a different story with stage 4. Major decrease in motivation. Immense amount of neediness. Major levels of procrastination. I've not felt like this since before using any of Shannon's subs. This is a major roadblock in progress. For the first time in a long time I'm now scared. I'm now in a position at work that requires me to aggressively attack issues utilizing all of my skill sets, and really working hard. All the attributes that I expecte of a multimillionaire.
For the first time in an extremely longtime I have dread.
Stage 4 has put me in a state similar to my pre-sub condition.
The person I need to be now is not the same person I was before using Shannon's subs.
I have the basic skills to do my job. I've been here before. It's not fun but I can do this. I dread my current state of mind because I lack motivation and I'm consumed by self-doubt. The last time this state of mind occurred was during the very first stages ouf AM.
I only pray that there is light at the end of this tunnel because this really sucks.
AYD
I'm about one week into stage 4.
Other than being pounded by work nothing major happened through the first three stages.
Motivation was up with a general positive outlook on life. Things seem to click.
It's a different story with stage 4. Major decrease in motivation. Immense amount of neediness. Major levels of procrastination. I've not felt like this since before using any of Shannon's subs. This is a major roadblock in progress. For the first time in a long time I'm now scared. I'm now in a position at work that requires me to aggressively attack issues utilizing all of my skill sets, and really working hard. All the attributes that I expecte of a multimillionaire.
For the first time in an extremely longtime I have dread.
Stage 4 has put me in a state similar to my pre-sub condition.
The person I need to be now is not the same person I was before using Shannon's subs.
I have the basic skills to do my job. I've been here before. It's not fun but I can do this. I dread my current state of mind because I lack motivation and I'm consumed by self-doubt. The last time this state of mind occurred was during the very first stages ouf AM.
I only pray that there is light at the end of this tunnel because this really sucks.
AYD
