07-05-2013, 06:20 AM
(This post was last modified: 07-05-2013, 06:21 AM by AlphaScorpio.)
Stage 3: Day 8 - I'm having a hard time at the moment, I'm getting some fairly heavy resistance to this stage I can feel my mind resisting the change. For the past few days I've been feeling more like my old self and I can kind of feel my self respect, self entitlement and confidence slipping, I'm finding it hard to ask for things from other people, finding it hard to speak my mind and I just feel a little trapped in my body being sucked in to other peoples realities almost instantly, I don't get anxiety but I do feel some sort of emotion that's holding me back most likely fear mixed with shame/anger. I am conscious of my thoughts changing from previously "I don't care whatever happens, It'll be fine" to "But what if". Also noticed my body language is automatically closed, I look at the floor more and I get defensive and irritable. This stuff is painstaking, feels like I've taken 2 steps forward, then 1 step back.
