06-19-2013, 06:03 PM
(This post was last modified: 06-19-2013, 07:48 PM by Molon Labe.)
Day 4
Surprisingly tired. Surprisingly aggravated.
Hours of listening to ASC 5.0 are definitely contributing to my tiredness. I've read a couple of Shannon's warnings about this, yet I'm still surprised at HOW tired. But maybe it's also a sleep thing too--my past 48 hours were a bit haphazard.
Big life change decisions are to be associated with being aggravated, in addition to contributions from ASC 5.0. Meaning: Prior to starting ASC 5.0 I'd already been in transition from beta to alpha. In addition, however, I do feel that ASC 5.0 is encouraging today's super aggravation with my present circumstances.
Side note: Opened by a super cuty nerd girl coworker today who can't be more than 20-22 years old. She's cute in a nontraditional, nerd-girl way. I saw her a couple weeks ago reading a book on break. Didn't see the book. Hope it was nonfiction.
Was super aggravated today by my lack of career options. My degree and education are in economics, but didn't pursue post-college professional work. Economics, as an academic discipline, is rife with theoretical problems on the one hand, and on the other hand most non-academic professional applications involve heavy doses of mathematics and statistics, and watching so-called economic indicators constantly, which has never appealed to me. I'm more a big-picture, system design person than a daily number crunching type.
Didn't want to deal with anybody today...and I mean anybody, not even my closest work friends/aquaintences. Was thinking all morning of legitimate paths I could take out, based closely upon my gifts and abilities, and start upon soon like by summer's end.
I cannot accurately identify the overriding cause of today's high dissatisfaction, because I have been moving my thoughts and life towards these moments, especially recently, prior to starting ASC 5.0. But as I mention above, it does feel true to me that ASC 5.0 is contributing to these feelings in some material way; perhaps significantly, but there's no way to tell by how much.
Surprisingly tired. Surprisingly aggravated.
Hours of listening to ASC 5.0 are definitely contributing to my tiredness. I've read a couple of Shannon's warnings about this, yet I'm still surprised at HOW tired. But maybe it's also a sleep thing too--my past 48 hours were a bit haphazard.
Big life change decisions are to be associated with being aggravated, in addition to contributions from ASC 5.0. Meaning: Prior to starting ASC 5.0 I'd already been in transition from beta to alpha. In addition, however, I do feel that ASC 5.0 is encouraging today's super aggravation with my present circumstances.
Side note: Opened by a super cuty nerd girl coworker today who can't be more than 20-22 years old. She's cute in a nontraditional, nerd-girl way. I saw her a couple weeks ago reading a book on break. Didn't see the book. Hope it was nonfiction.
Was super aggravated today by my lack of career options. My degree and education are in economics, but didn't pursue post-college professional work. Economics, as an academic discipline, is rife with theoretical problems on the one hand, and on the other hand most non-academic professional applications involve heavy doses of mathematics and statistics, and watching so-called economic indicators constantly, which has never appealed to me. I'm more a big-picture, system design person than a daily number crunching type.
Didn't want to deal with anybody today...and I mean anybody, not even my closest work friends/aquaintences. Was thinking all morning of legitimate paths I could take out, based closely upon my gifts and abilities, and start upon soon like by summer's end.
I cannot accurately identify the overriding cause of today's high dissatisfaction, because I have been moving my thoughts and life towards these moments, especially recently, prior to starting ASC 5.0. But as I mention above, it does feel true to me that ASC 5.0 is contributing to these feelings in some material way; perhaps significantly, but there's no way to tell by how much.
