AM 5.0 Journal

[AlphaScorpio]

I'm finding listening to AM nearly 24/7 (or at least as much as possible) is working good for me, today after I came back from a trip on the motorbike I sat down for dinner with 2 guests, my uncle and grandmother. The first thing I noticed was I just wasn't needy for attention - BIG ONE - It was very subtle, I kinda just enjoyed sitting there listening to other people's conversation, it was nice. I'm not really much of a talkative person at the moment, in the past week I've been prefering to stay in silence and just learning to go with whatever, only speaking if I really have something to say or need to. So my uncle starts talking about zoos (he's obsessed with animals) and said that "Oh Dan, he'd love to work at a zoo like that!" I looked at him like o.0 "what, no I wouldn't" My uncle looked a little offended "Ah well you're just a coward." At that point I got a flash of anger in my stomach and I looked at him, then at my plate then back at my uncle and straight away said firmly "I'm not a coward, I would not like to work in a zoo simple as that, it's not my sort of thing." and carried on eating my lunch. The talking had died down a little then my Uncle says to me again almost apologetically "Well, I can understand you not wanting to work in a zoo like that...I wouldn't either." So I told him about a zoo in Bolivia that we went to and I said I wouldn't mind working in there for a month or so just not a full time job. To this he agreed and the topic moved on and I felt I difussed the situation whilst maintaining my self respect and reinforcing the boundaries. Good stuff.


@Shannon That sounds exactly where I want to be in a few years Shannon.

@Molon Labe Yes Molon, If there is one thing I'm very good at, it's acting upon my feelings, If I get an urge to do something I'll do it I'm quite impulsive. I just need the feeling though hehe.

@SexyMofo Thx mate