06-11-2013, 11:45 AM
So today I've been feeling a bit up and down, noticed some real beta habits coming back like neediness, insecurity, getting upset if nobody seems interested to talk to me, and jealousy.
Earlier me, this swiss girl, my grandad and this new norweigean girl all went on a walk to the beach. This new norweigean girl was talking to the swiss girl who i'm fairly comfortable with and we get on well plus some flirting, im pretty sure she likes me. And I kinda walked along side them both as they were talking not really adding much into the conversation, I was kinda holding back cause I felt that they'd rather not me join in... so I just walked on ahead feeling kinda betrayed by the swiss girl for not trying to talk to me (I know, sad as f*** right?) but as silly as it seems this felt bad and I knew it was insecurity and bull**** but I just felt so needy and pathetic/rejected. I tried to just go off and do my own thing but I couldn't really take my mind off of the situation.
Another thing is in the evenings me and the swiss girl usually stay up and watch TV til about 11 and we usually have a good time, but last night she didn't come down to watch TV for whatever reason, so instead of getting up and doing something more productive I sat there hoping she'd come down...I knew it was silly and beta lol.
Just wondering if it's standard for people to go through phases of old behavior and neediness beta sad ****?
Earlier me, this swiss girl, my grandad and this new norweigean girl all went on a walk to the beach. This new norweigean girl was talking to the swiss girl who i'm fairly comfortable with and we get on well plus some flirting, im pretty sure she likes me. And I kinda walked along side them both as they were talking not really adding much into the conversation, I was kinda holding back cause I felt that they'd rather not me join in... so I just walked on ahead feeling kinda betrayed by the swiss girl for not trying to talk to me (I know, sad as f*** right?) but as silly as it seems this felt bad and I knew it was insecurity and bull**** but I just felt so needy and pathetic/rejected. I tried to just go off and do my own thing but I couldn't really take my mind off of the situation.
Another thing is in the evenings me and the swiss girl usually stay up and watch TV til about 11 and we usually have a good time, but last night she didn't come down to watch TV for whatever reason, so instead of getting up and doing something more productive I sat there hoping she'd come down...I knew it was silly and beta lol.
Just wondering if it's standard for people to go through phases of old behavior and neediness beta sad ****?
