05-16-2013, 07:34 AM
So today I've had a full day of body crippling social anxiety, it's been my uncles cousins funeral and many people who I didnt know turned up, I felt awful, uncomfortable and I just felt trapped, haven't felt this bad at a gathering in a while. I got so emotional I just left the restraunt which we all went to and went for a walk along the coast, my mum then called me from home to see how I was doing, I just broke out crying which I haven't done since I was about 7 or 8 years old, I told mum that i'm well and truly fed up of having these feelings and I practically broke down infront of my grandparents and my uncles probably saw it too I felt so vulnerable but in a good way, usually I resist showing any sign of weakness and close down. It was such a release, I've just got back from the funeral and i'm feeling fragile but refreshed inside,Fucking angry I hate social anxiety
