04-20-2013, 07:27 AM
This is copied from my AM5.0 journal.
Now many months later (almost a year?) here is my new take on it.
I haven't had women approach me or myself be social for a few reasons (mostly my excuses and reasons, rather than the women). I know some people don't believe a car is necessary or a job is necessary to "be a boyfriend". It's true, they aren't necessary. But you know what part was necessary was having those things to get a girlfriend so you could "be a boyfriend". Neither of those things were in my access at the time of completing AM11 and SM11/1.0. Being someone who does not live in the city and in the suburbs with his family, not exactly much going on for me.
Ultimately, I would consider my SM experience an add on to my AM journey. Initially I wanted to have WM, not SM but due to SM being 4g vs WM1.0 being 3g, I went with the more powerful one. Perhaps that wasn't ideal? I can already tell that my outlook based on my previous journal and my outlook now is just night and day in ways that I think about how I handle things.
So... SM gave me what I signed up for. An extremely attractive and exotic lady for sex purposes. Despite not being until stage 6, but the idea is that the program comes together by the end. Here's the part that I tried to force, a relationship that would meet my... soulmate standards (I suppose that's how I would say that)? After months of realizing that it was purely sexual only and not for other relationship purposes... I ended it. I know who I am more as I grow, I'm still 23 and learning more about myself.
Anyhow I'm not sure if I quite answered your question to your liking, but that was how I felt about it.
Quote: Hi everyone, I posted a journal maybe a year or two ago when I first started my adventures with shannon's subliminals. I bought my first one which was AM2011 and was ready for an investment to change my life. The initial effects were very subtle. Afterwards, some months later I started SM2011, and did 40 days per stage. The program was also a very subtle change in me and I didn't have a girl approach or seduce me until stage 6.
That one day, a very attractive woman came into my life. That was 4 months ago. She had a boyfriend. I don't touch that shit. We still exchange numbers. 2 months later she calls me and wants to hang out. At this point, she's trying to seduce me but I hold out on sex for a while because I decide when we have sex, that's just how it is. We talked about this and I was like, right you did the seducing but I chose when we have sex. She said yup.
Anyway, I finished stage 6 while we were "together" (we are not in any relationship, we're just FWB). I take a month off of subs and recently I purchased AM5.0 and also SM2.0 (may as well have bought it since the two programs work so well together). But while I'm hanging out with my lady friend, she keeps pointing out to me that I'm a flirt or a player. We went on an outdoor adventure with some random people. A mother and her two sons. Our crew guide was a girl in her 20s. She had an airy thing to her which I found mildly attractive but not up to my standards. Throughout the whole time my friend says I am a "raging flirt" (her words literally). I even have other guys jealous of me according to her, and I'm just there completely oblivious. Shannon what have you done to me?!!!
Now many months later (almost a year?) here is my new take on it.
I haven't had women approach me or myself be social for a few reasons (mostly my excuses and reasons, rather than the women). I know some people don't believe a car is necessary or a job is necessary to "be a boyfriend". It's true, they aren't necessary. But you know what part was necessary was having those things to get a girlfriend so you could "be a boyfriend". Neither of those things were in my access at the time of completing AM11 and SM11/1.0. Being someone who does not live in the city and in the suburbs with his family, not exactly much going on for me.
Ultimately, I would consider my SM experience an add on to my AM journey. Initially I wanted to have WM, not SM but due to SM being 4g vs WM1.0 being 3g, I went with the more powerful one. Perhaps that wasn't ideal? I can already tell that my outlook based on my previous journal and my outlook now is just night and day in ways that I think about how I handle things.
So... SM gave me what I signed up for. An extremely attractive and exotic lady for sex purposes. Despite not being until stage 6, but the idea is that the program comes together by the end. Here's the part that I tried to force, a relationship that would meet my... soulmate standards (I suppose that's how I would say that)? After months of realizing that it was purely sexual only and not for other relationship purposes... I ended it. I know who I am more as I grow, I'm still 23 and learning more about myself.
Anyhow I'm not sure if I quite answered your question to your liking, but that was how I felt about it.
